Why Now (Juuzou x reader)

Why

Akira was still hugging you quietly sobbing and rub circle on her back still confused on why she's crying

You: why are you crying?

Akira widen her eyes at what she's hearing tears still streaming down her face

Akira: why?

She looks at her hand clutched into your shoulders

Akira: I'm crying because I lived a good childhood and you were tortured in yours and I can't imagine how painful it used to be

You: it's okay-

Akira: no it's not! you have been tortured by the ones that made you they are supposed to love and care for you!! I don't understand why you don't get that

You face turns blank your e/c orbs lifeless

You: momma said I was a mistake a cold piece of earth that shouldn't be where it is, I never understood why she and daddy hated me but I tried my best to make them happy, but I only made it worse

You remember your mother's cold harsh voice as Akira hugged you

You: and when I killed that bunny

You look at Juuzou he had a blank expression as he stared at you

You: mommy looked so scared of me, and when ghouls came she put me in the line of danger, she told me to get rid of them

Akira: what did you do?

You: I killed the big guy and Kazue ran out my mom and dad screamed at the sight of me covered in his blood

Akira: why did you ask if you were still a bad girl?

You: they looked scared but still trained me to be a proper lady after that but it was boring

Akira: it wasn't your style?

You: not how mommy made it it was so uncomfortable

Akira:...why?

You: why what?

Akira: why did you have to be raised like that? why couldn't they love you like we do?

Your eyes widen at her words and you make a small smile

You: I'm not special or anything I just have to be a good girl-

Akira: don't say that! you're a talented, beautiful and incredible so stop acting like all you can do is be a good or bad girl you only have to be you

Akira looks you straight in the eye and you bury your face in her chest ( not I between weirdos)

You: okay momma