Why Now (Juuzou x reader)

There still worth fighting for

You were on the rooftop throwing paper airplanes in the cold night sky, you had a lot of thoughts over the past few months you got a very loving boyfriend, a father and mother figure, you reunited with your cousins

You: why is it so heavy to think about?

You toss another airplane and sigh the words of Akira saying they love you confused you so badly you couldn't explain it

You: why do they love me? Mama and Papa didn't so why them?

Everyone's kind and loving words made you think of your parents they said mean and cruel things, not even a smile would come to your parents

You: why did they hate me? I don't get it

Your hair blows in the wind as you look at the moon

You: what am I?

The wind blows soft but rough on your face as you hear blissful words in your ear

??: a fallen angel

You turn your head to all sides to see nobody

You: Hmm? who was that?

Silence was heard you sigh and return your attention to the airplanes and toss another

You: how do you even fix a fallen angel or whatever it is?

You stand up the wind blowing your hair and jacket as the cold wind hits your skin

You: Juuzou, M.r Shinohara, Amon, Akira, Touka, Ayato, Hinami, Roma, Nishiki, Kaya, Enji, Yoshimura...

As you say their names their faces flash in your mind their smiles spread across their faces

You: they all care

You throw another now there is one left

You: they treat me as their own, care for me, and they fighter by my side no matter what side I'm on

You look down the building it was a pretty long fall you look straight seeing birds fly

You: Anteiku, CCG, Agori Tree they all care for me the same no matter which side  I'm on but why?

You look down again feeling the urge to jump as you see the people walk by

You: there isn't a point in fighting its too boring maybe I should-

You feel the airplane at your foot you pick it up and stare at it you smile remaining everybody's faces

You: maybe not I care for them as much as they care for me but if I die it won't be such a big deal right?

You shake your head at the thought

You: no they'll be shattered

You throw the last airplane in the sky with a bright smile

You: there still worth fighting for