Play Pretend | Lucaya

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Have you ever been so happy you felt like you could faint? I've never felt like that. Until today.

Lucas came home today, and I feel renewed. Of course, he's back home with his family.

I'm stuck in bed next to my mom.

It was all so fast. Once he said he was coming home, he ran up behind me and Riley; scaring the crap out of me.

He smiled, and continued to run. He was running home. His home wasn't me.

So now I sit in my mothers bed, staring at my popcorn ceiling. I am thinking. Which I don't do much.

Does this boy really love me? Or is it all a plain game? I don't know. He is Lucas Friar. I am Maya Hart. And I don't know what to do.

I am thinking of telling him that I love him, but what good would that do? Show that I have dedication? Bullshit.

I can't tell him anything. Because Maya Hart is not vulnerable, nope. I wait for them to come to me. And if Lucas never comes to me, then our "pretend game" will never come true.

I will not, I swear to you, will not run after him. Not anymore. Not after what I went through. My goal was to find him, not to praise him and kiss him.

I guess I do feel sick inside. Sick that he didn't want to spend more time with me. He wanted to go straight home to his texas-new york house with his mom and dad.

See, if I were in love, I'd rather spend time with the person I loved. Not with my mom or Shawn.

I get it, he just needed time.

But he scared me. I am angry at him. I don't know how to forgive such a thing.

I am confused. I am scared.

And i'm

in love.