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xviiii. i promised /February 5, 2014/

I'd like to stand closer to the edge of

Darkness

Away from the light,

The people,

The noises they make,

The laughter that echoes.

But I promised

I promised

I promised

I promised

That I wouldn't.

Even now, after all the promises

The shed tears,

The darkness calls to me

Whispers my true name

Tells me stories of

Life without grief

And sadness

And anger

And hate.

But dammit I promised

I promised

I promised

I promised

That I wouldn't.

We can hold hands

You know.

As we walk together

Towards something darker

Yet happier.

But fuck I promised

I promised

I promised

I promised

That I wouldn't.

How am I supposed to do it now?

Now that I know you're weak and

Need me.

Now that I know you've got things

That I still need to hear,

To understand.

That's why I promised

I promised

I promised

I promised

That I wouldn't.