I Need You Now

Chapter 4

Later that day, Louis got home ad drank some more vodka. Harry was going over to Siva's to talk about his girlfriend. Louis take a swing after each thought.

He engage Kelsey right after he broke me.

He hates me and what was peanut.

i miss peanut.

I'll never know him/her. Never hold my baby.

Why did i ever tell him?

He walked into his bedroom and drunkenly looked through his drawers to find it. Here it is, he thought my last piece of peanut. Louis sobbed, putting the bottle down. He backed up and sat on his bed, touching his stomach as he held the sonogram, making sure he didn't get tears on it. The only light was from the moon that shone on the sonogram. Louis knew that peanut would be up in heaven, floating on clouds, but peanut was never given their chance to live. Which made Louis feel even lonelier. He grabbed his cellphone, with the hand was wasn't holding the picture and called the number Harry gave him.

"Hello?"

"Fuck you and your slut!"

"Louis. How the hell did you get my number?"

"You like destroying people, don't you."

"Are you fucking drunk Tomlinson?"

"Tell me one thing, Tom. You you hate me or my band?"

"Both. Cussing us out behind our backs is pretty low and you're the head chief of the UnWanted. What the fuck is that?"

"No, I would probably be the last person."

"Why should I believe you? You becoming a stalker."

"Because I love you. As pathetic as that sounds, I love someone was horrible as you." Louis confessed. "And I loved our child before I knew it as half of you. I broke up with El for you, in hopes things could work out. But you can't even give me a glance. Did you see me glaring at you today? Did you see me almost cry when you announced you got engaged the day after you told me to get an abortion?" Louis yelled, crying harder. Tom stayed silent, Louis frantically wiped away some tears, composing himself.

"Do you even notice me?" Than Louis heard the phone shut off. He flung his phone at the wall and watched it shatter like his life right now. It's too painfully to put it back together. He laid on his bed and went to sleep with his sonogram.

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Tom rubbed his face in frustration and annoyance. How would you act if Louis Tomlinson from One Direction told you he loved you and wanted your babies? He felt awful for hurting Louis more than he could have imagined but he doesn't feel the same way about him and he doesn't think he ever will because he is engaged to Kelsey, a long time girlfriend and a woman he loves.

He avoided Louis all of today because he was still mad at Louis for the night he tried to be nice to him just to have Louis yell at him and treat him like nothing. He wasn't mad at the band, Nathan was 'secretly' friends with everyone and he knew Harry has been dating Siva. Jay and Niall were drinking buddies and Zayn and Liam  didn't like Max and didn't care for him. He was mad that his band was threatened. Siva didn't really do well with criticism over the tiniest things he did, Nath grew up being bullied and didn't think he have to be bullied in his career by young girls, Jay and Max were sensitive but didn't show it, but you could see the pain on their faces as they read the hate from posting something as simply as good morning.

He never understood Louis' burning hatred for him, especially. So he just hate him back and Louis gave him more and more reasons to. Like tonight, as he went back in his bedroom where his sleeping fiancee laid, instead of think about her, he went to Louis worrying about Louis. And he hated that.

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Harry didn't go into Siva's flat that night, even though the key was in his hand. He parked close enough not to be noticed. The thought that his boyfriend was cheating on him, publicly, made it that more humiliating. 

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Louis woke up the next morning to a blistering headache. He went to the bathroom so shower and change and do his morning routine, than closed all the blinds and made coffee, blindly reaching for the ingredients, his head hanging low to avoid sunlight. Harry barged in letting the door slam close, Louis cried out in pain.

"What the hell?" he whispered-yell, rubbing his forehead. Harry crossed his arms after putting the kettle on the fire for tea.

"Nareesha ,"Harry said with disgust. Louis looked up at his upset friend.

"Siva's girlfriend?" Harry nodded. "Than why are  you dressed up? Are you going on a date?"

"Because..... I haven't thought that far. I just want him to be jealous."

"Siva doesn't really show it you know."

"He does in the slightest way. I know him, dated him for 7 months" Louis nodded, not entirely agreeing with his friend, but it made him calm down.

"Guess what I did last night?" Harry shrugged, taking the kettle off the fire and pouring it into a cup.

"I called Tom and told him I love him." Louis said, lightly banging his head on the table.  Harry almost burned himself, over pouring the burning liquid.

"What did he say?"

"He just hung up." Louis said, sitting down and lying his head on the table. "I don't know what I was expecting. I hope he thinks of it as a bad dream."

"Why is your sonogram doing on the table?" Harry said picking it up and looking at the tiny picture. Louis looked up too quick, so it hurt more.

"Didn't even notice." He said, taking it and picking back in it's place on  his dresser. Harry was going to talk about it but decided against it, because the wound was still fresh.

"Are you trying to make thing at least civil between you and Tom?" Louis sat back down and shrugged.

"He started it," he said like a child. There was a knock on the door and a man said delivery. Louis walked over to the door as Harry finished making his tea. 

"Hello?"

"Tomlinson?" the mail man asked.

"Yes"

"Here is a package from you. From: Sorry." The man said and passed the basket to Louis and left. Louis closed the door behind him and brought it to his kitchen.

"Who's that from?"

"Sorry," Harry looked confused but than he saw the tag.

"Open it," Louis obeyed and opened on half and he saw chocolates, a small bear holding a flower and card. He opened the card.

Didn't know that it felt 

like a dagger in your heart.

-Tom

p.s. sorry.

Louis smacked away Harry's hand from going into his chocolates from Tom and passed the card, who smiled as he read it.

"How come you're smiling?" Harry asked. Louis touched his face than realized he had a huge grin.

"Because your secret admirer sent you chocolates." Harry teased. Louis' face got red and he tried to hide under the fringe that was left in his hair since he didn't do anything to it.

"Shut up," Louis said, smiling wider.

 These will be kinda short. Vote

reference to dagger by The Wanted