Jack's POV
I hate school! I spent the whole week with my head on my desk or sitting in the toilets. Minx and Dodger keep urging me to come sit with them but I can't bring myself to it.
If they try to follow me to see where I go but I would duck into a restroom and stay there until they either leave or the bell rings. I would occupy my time by writing to Mark.
I only write to him during lunch time or at home. I made the mistake of writing to him in class one day and they guy to my left saw. He ended up shouting it out to the class. I freaked out and ran out of the classroom.
I've resulted in wearing long sleeve outfits so people won't see the writing or the scars that were forming on my arms. Mist had faded but some still lingered and will be there as a constant memory of my pain.
I've completely pulled away from Minx and Dodger. No matter how hard I try to talk to them I just can't form the words. So I don't try. I just stay locked up in my room all afternoon with my earphones in.
I only seem to be happy when talking to Mark but as soon as I say goodbye I slip back into my dark corner of sorrow. So I was constantly talking to him whenever I got the chance.
Trish hasn't visited in a while. But I had the feeling she would soon. I've heard Mary talking to her on the phone about me. She thinks I might do something I'll regret. But I won't. I never will.
Are you okay Jack?
No I'm not. I'm broken. I'm shattered. I'm loosing myself. I want to stop the pain. I want to cry until I loose all emotions. I want you.
I'm fine.
No you aren't.
Then why ask if you already knew the answer?
Because I wanted to see if you would tell the truth...
I'm fine now that you're here.
Thanks but I know you aren't. What's wrong?
Why can't he just not worry. Why can't he just continue the usual conversations we always have with no worries.
Nothing can you please not talk about it.
No, I'm not going to drop it. You aren't happy Jack. I just want to help you. Please tell me what's wrong.
I don't know Mark. I haven't been 'happy' for a while. The day I was torn away from you I haven't felt truly happy. I have a constant feeling of emptiness inside me that can never be filled. Any smile I make isn't genuine just forced. My laughs always fall short and fake. I just want to feel normal again. But I don't think that will ever happen.
He stayed silent for a moment. I felt tears falling down my face. I didn't bother to wipe them away as Mark began to write on my arm.
I know it feels hopeless Jack. But it isn't. I will always be here with you. There are people all around you that can help you Jack. You are never alone. The feeling you have will pass. You just have to stay strong throughout it and don't let it drag you down. I love you Jack...
I felt more tears falling down my face. I hastily rubbed them away and wrote in shaky hands.
Thank you Mark. I love you too. I'll stay strong, for you.
Thank you babe. I love you so much. I've got to go though. Felix is making me go outside and get some fresh air.
Haha, typical Felix. All motherly. Have fun though. Talk to me when you get back.
I will, be back soon. I love you.
I love you too.
"More than you will ever know," I whispered afterwards. I lay down on my bed and let all his words sink into my mind. The more I thought about them the happier I became.
Knowing I had people all around me to go to just made me feel so much better. I sat up and walked downstairs. Minx and Dodger were playing a game in the PS. They paused it and turned to me.
"Hey uh...," I stopped to take a breath. "Look, I'm sorry for being such a jerk lately. I've been pushing you guys away when all you want to do is help. I'm sorry."
The two shared a quick glance before getting up and pulling me into a tight hug. I hesitated at first before hugging back. I buried my face into Minx's shoulder to hide the tears falling down my face. I was such a crybaby.
"Hey, its okay Jack. We understand how you feel. Don't worry, we will always be here if you need to talk. Even if you don't we will still stay here with you," Minx said softly pulling away. I could only nod in response.
She gave a weak smile before inviting me to join them to play. I nodded and sat down on the couch with them. Minx handed me a controller before starting a new match.
"Hey Jack," I heard Aaron call from the laptop set up on the table in front of me. I gave a sheepish wave when I saw they were on a Skype call with Aaron and another person. I recognised him as the kid from the hall.
"Oh, Jack this Robert. Robert this is-" Dodger began but Robert cut her off. (RobertIDK) "you feeling better?" He said happily. I smiled shyly and nodded. Dodger and Minx gave me a confused look.
"I ran into him on my second day and run into him every now and then at lunch," I explained. They nodded and we started playing..
It was about an hour later, and a whole lit of junk for, when I felt the recognisable tingle of writing on my arm. I glanced down from the game quickly to see Mark was writing. I smiled as the match ended and I told everyone to hold on for a second.
Hey Jack. I'm back, Felix finally let me come home.
Hey, its fine me and some friend were playing some video games.
Awe, I wanna play.
I thought for a second.
Got Skype?
Um... Yeah. Why?
Give me your username. I'll add you to the chat.
Um, its Markiplier.
Nice, hold on. I'll sort it out. Log on and wait for me.
Yes sir.
I smiled and talked to everyone. They were all eager to meet Mark. None of them have actually seen him yet. And its been a while since I've seen him too.
As the Skype ringtone rang out I couldn't help but feel nervous. I still looked like a mess. My hair was a horrible faded colour that needs re-dyeing and it stuck up all over the place. I nervously brushed it to the side with my hand as Mark answered the call.
"Hey gorgeous," he said when he was me. Everyone made awes in the background. I smiled but noticed something was off about him.
"What happened to your red hair?!" I almost shouted at him. He let out a chuckle that made everyone fall silent around me.
"I dyed it back to its natural colour because it was getting difficult to maintain the red. All my towels look like I had my period all over them," he said making everyone laugh. And my laugh was real. It didn't fall flat or seem forced. It was real.
"Alright, let's play some games shall we," Aaron said once he calmed down. We all agreed and started up the new match, Mark joining the online game with us and playing like Aaron and Robert. I hadn't felt this happy for a while but I loved the feeling.
But Mark doesn't know that Aaron was the one who bullied Jack. How will he react when he does find out? Idk, I'm not Mark XD
