2/25/17
Alone.
You'll feel alone the majority of the time. Do not open your mouth though. Don't you dare open it because he'll raise his voice and make you feel so tiny. As tiny as you could possible be.
Don't tell him how lonely you feel because he's not there when you needed him the most. He will batter you with questions asking when he hasn't been there for you. Name one time he hasn't been there for you?
Your mind will then go blank but you already know when and where he hasn't been there for you. You won't be able to pin point and remember the exact event and he will then proceed to believe you wrong and he was right and that it isn't true but deep inside you know it's true. He hasn't always been there. But then you'll slowly start to believe you were wrong and he was always there and you were just to stupid to notice.
Stupidity is all you will feel.
Stupid - for letting him win
Stupid - for not remembering
Stupid - for opening your mouth to begin with
Stupid - for thinking you were right
All you be is stupid. All you will be is alone.
No one is gonna be there for you and no one will be there to squeeze you and love you when you need it.
And you're wrong if you think it will be him.
But remember, you love him....so don't leave him.
