Tranquility was the only way to explain it .
After David finished his "breakfast" he took a shower and was possibly asleep in my bed . I didn't know how long I sat In The chair until my senses told me to do the same . My legs were wobbly and I was light headed from the out of body experience . Was this a dream ? I peeked in my room . It wasn't .
I grabbed some clothes took a quick shower then snuck to call Melinda who I noticed called me a few times .
" hey I've been calling you all morning the fitting for your dress was today ! Are you okay ?"
" shit shit shit shit I'm so sorry Mel I totally forgot"
" you lucky we wear the same size otherwise you would be dead meat .. Why are you whispering anyways "
" David is here " I looked back to see if he was listening . Melinda squealed .
"Shhh.. Be quiet " we were giggling like school girls .
" so how was it I'm dying to know "
" well last night we cuddled and this morning we had breakfast "
" that's it ? " she sounded disappointed
" yea I had pancakes and he .. Had me "
" OMG!" I could picture her face when she said it and we began giggling again
" well I'm not gonna hold you up call me if you need anything I'm still in the bridal shop with Kevin . "
I knew he was going threw hell itself right now and I chuckled at the thought .
I snuggled next David and watched him sleep like a crazed fan.
He got the feeling that he was being watched because his eyes slightly opened.
" took you long enough " he kissed me on my forehead swoon . " Stacy " he voice was sleepy and sexy . " you're the sweetest treat I've ever had "
I pinched myself . It's was quiet before curiosity got the best of me .
" how many sweet treats have you had ?"
I tried to make it sound as nonchalant as possible . I mean I didn't expect David out of all people to be a virgin but I wanted to know . He opened one eye and stared at me
"What ? "
" How many David ?"
Now this didn't sound nonchalant at all but more confrontational then I expected . He sat up and look at me . His expression no longer looked loving but annoyed .
" Stacy what kind of guy do you think I am ? "
Now it was time for me to sit up too .
"One who won't answer the question?"
I went from confrontational to menacing. He gave me a look that wasn't angry or disgusted but disappointed. He shook his head And started to get dress. At that point I didn't know what to say so I said everything that was on my mind . Big mistake , I stood up .
" let's be serious David . Look at you you handsome and successful and single . You know your hot and all the women around you swarm to you like honey on a stick . Just answer the damn question "
I was making things worst .
" Stacy did I have sex with you last night ?!"
He was shouting .
" well ...no but-"
" could I have ? "
I didn't say anything and he got in my face .
" I pleased YOU this morning did I ask for anything in return !"
Now I was silent .
" I thought you seen beyond me . But you act like every other woman who has came into my life . I thought you was better than that . "
He walked away and I didn't know what to say . A part of my pride was angry because he compared me with other woman . By the time I got my senses back to call after him he was out the door and possibly out my life .
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I didn't know what to do I called Melinda over but she was still busy at the bridal shop and told me she would be over after . I guess that meant it was time to blog .
Decided to vent . Why why why why me . I just let one of the few things that made me happy walk out the door and I don't know what to do . I made the kind of mistake that you can't just apologize for . It's bad enough that I keep running to my best friend for advice and she's has enough to worry about because she getting married. Sad part is I'm not as happy for her as I should be because I'm so stuck on worrying about myself . Sometimes I wonder if I'm a bad person because bad things keep happening to me . Karma is very real she just got the wrong bitch
Sincerely , my life is screwed .
A couple of people wrote inspirational quotes that were suppose to make me feel better but they didn't . others told me to suck it up And then there was the weirdos asking to suck my toes and if I wanted to make some extra cash on the side
I thought this was gonna make me feel better but it didn't . Then I remember I had a gift for Melinda to open yesterday but forgot to give it to her because I ran out of the party. I realize then that I being a bad friend . I would have to apologize to her.
I was rummaging things around when I heard her use her spare key to get in .
"Stace!"
" I'll be right there ! "
I finally found the box that contained her " something borrow and something blue " it was a pair of diamond earrings with blue topaz stones that my mother wore on her wedding day . Being that Melinda's mom died when we were still very young I wanted to share a piece of me with her . I knew she would cry when I gave it to her but when I walked back to the living room it look like she was already in tears .
" what is this ?" She pointed at my laptop . I didn't know what to say
" ...I'm not as happy for her as I should be ?" What does that even mean Stacy "
"You have it all misunderstood "
" No I don't believe I do , if you're so upset about the wedding don't come !"
And with that the second person who was important to me walked out of the door . Boy was I on a roll .
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In The Mind Of
RomanceStacy feels like her world is upside down. Constantly being overshadowed by her older brothers and with the busy lives of everyone around her ,the newly single beauty surprisingly has no one to vent to .She starts a blog "In the Mind of " where she...