Dear future daughter,
Baby girl i'm apologizing ahead of time for everything i'm about to say.
These things need to be said.
Princess, child of mine, 'I'm scared.
I'm so scared i'm not going to be good enough for you,
and you'll hate me as much as i hated my own mother.
I don't want you to hate me,
More than anything i want you to embrace me.
Let me know that you trust me.
I love you.
Love bug i'm going to say this a lot true your life
and hopefully you'll say it back.
Buy beautiful i must confess.
I never wanted you.
I never wanted to have a little girl,
Because i knew that i couldn't handle it.
I can't , no!
More like i won't, let my little girl be treated like a slave when she starts to notice the boys who notice her.
Because i get it, society explains to us that the boys are born heartbreakers,
and the girl are just emotional baby makers.
I don't want that for you.
Yet i know i can't hide i from you.
So i have no idea what to do.
Can we make a promise?
Promise me you'll be brave.
Promise me you'll be smart.
That's all i'm asking for at the moment.
Brave and smart.
Be brave because if our family history.
You know what i mean.
When people on the streets comment on how you look just like your uncle,
The one who overdosed on drugs just before you were born.
When people ask you whatever happened to your grandfather,
and you can't answer cuz you never met me.
Be brave.
Be brave even when they ask about me.
Cause baby these people don't care about you.
There nosey and want to see you fail.
Fuck'em
Now when you're done being brave, be smart.
Don't make the same mistake your father and i made.
Be smart when it comes down to you and your first boyfriend.
Make sure you look before you leap.
Im telling you from experience.
Be smart princess, you know what year you live in.
At this moment in time, society calls abortion murder,
Then turns around and looks down on teen mothers.
And did i mention that since we're hispanic no one will give you a spot on teen mom.
So for the love of god, BE SMART!
Smart and brave.
And don't let anyone disgrace your name.
Princess i have so much more to say,
But i'll save that for when we're face to face.
I love and can't wait to meet you.
