harry potter imagines

028.|| i'll cry instead [p.w.] || songfic by the beatles

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Summary: Percy and you broke up and he wants- or needs you back.

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[6th Year]

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I'll Cry Instead

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The Beatles

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I've got every reason on earth to be mad//Cos I've just lost the only girl I had

Percy never felt like this before. He can't even describe the feeling, the feeling of wanting her back, but then he doesn't want her to feel like a caged bird just to fulfill his happiness. She's happy without him, yet he's not even close to being fine. He can't feel the force that he feels like there's something tugging at the corners of his lips everything, he can't feel the urge to smile. Why would he smile, anyways? His little twin brothers are being annoying, his girlfriend left him and he let go, and now his performances at his subjects are getting poor because of her! And he'll just smile? He can't even wake up in a good mood during the past weeks, he's so sure he even looks like a zombie every time he walks down the hall, his feet can't even walk properly and his head keeps itself hung every time, and he'll just smile?

No, thank you.

I can't talk to people that I meet//And if I could see you now//I'd try to make you sad somehow

But I can't so I cry instead

Percy is naturally full of dignity and class when talking to other people, but in the way he's been talking lately, you can sense something is wrong even from the first syllable he let out. He's been talking like a social awkward person, he stutters, never makes an eye contact, for he's afraid that someone will notice his red, puffy eyes, where his feelings leaked like a faucet last night. He's miserable. He never realized that even if he's smart, he can be a fool when it comes to love, that it can crush him like a crumbly biscuit.

There is one time that he saw you leaning on one of the posts that faced the Court Yard, your own hangout place with your friends, doing a 'group study' where study is actually not present. They messed with each other's works and supplies, and it seems to kinda tick him off. It's so unfair, you know? Seeing the one he loves but she's not his, and she's very happy without his presence. He knows that it hurts to say goodbye to someone you don't want to leave, but he just found out that it's much, much more painful when you ask someone to stay, even when it's obvious that they want to go. It just hurts so much.

And show you what your loving man can do//Until then I'll cry instead

Percy wants to start over. He's eager to ask for a second chance, but he's afraid that he'll mess up and ask for another second chance because he's aware that third chances might never work out. He'll give everything, he's even willing to give away his schedule just to give her the cuddles she wanted, make her the hot cocoa she craves, everything. But these fantasies are left in his mind, wishing how he can bring back the past and treat his love better than he did previously. He can't do this anymore, she's gone and not planning on going back again.

Every time he sees her, there's a particular stinging in his eyes that seems to be natural each time his eyes landed on her. He considered that his tear ducts are malfunctioning because there's a lot of tears coming out. It looks like he needed a new pillow to cry on, he needed a new set of bed sheets to sulk into, needed a new heart because his heart fell so hard that it broke, needed a new pair eyes because they're tired of crying. He felt like an idiot for letting her go, it's his fault, he never treat her like she's important, he just treated her like the thing he does to kill time, a procrastination material. That's one of the biggest mistakes of his life.

He learned from these mistakes, he learned how to treat someone better, but he just ends up curling up into a ball and cries his eyes out.

He can show that he can change for her, but he'll just rather cry again.

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Hey, never expected an update this early, huh? Me neither. But the song just got stuck in my head and felt the need to make a oneshot about it. But yeah, I hope you enjoyed this, because maybe two updates in a (kind of) short span of days may not exist next time.

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