Loner's Feelings

Chapter 9

Eulan's Pov
My name .. Why am i having this weird name?? Ohh yeaa I remember this is my mom's fault .

She said before it is because of the idea of her mother obviously My grandmother

because I am have white complexion that shines to their eyes like milk ..

Milk powder and Eulan that my mom's idea because of her dreamson but unfortunately I am a girl. What a lame reasons tss.

and that idea gave me an idea that is why she always mad at me because she feels regret having me.

Haha That's why also they treated me unequally even my siblings didn't treat me like their own family and nively and maybe the other reason is I am only have not so good appearance .

maybe for them They will treat nicely is the one who is beautiful and famous and obviously is not me.

Masakit para sakin syempre kasi pamilya ko na yun. Pero ito ako nakakaranas ng ganun sa kanila. Pero narealize ko rin na kung ayaw nila sa akin edi wag!

Again I Don't want to bother other people anymore of they don't me by their side even my own Family.

My mom really loves my brothers. Even my siblings often not treated my mother right .

but then mom always forgiven them easily . She always give them what my brothers ask materials to her.

She doing anything for them. Just only for them.

For me I want to say to her why are being like this to me? Iam also your daughter... I also need you

In fact I am always here for you. And etc. That would be possible give her hint that I have value too.

But I'm wrong.. She did not even give me her attention..

It hurts ,it really really hurts.

So I finally decided I do not want to pleased anyone of you anymore.

I am tired of this
I am tired asking for your love

but if possible ...
If only possible you will ask me ..anything..

i am maybe lost to all of yoy again

cause I love all of you so much
T_T