Fastlane (Syd the Kyd Fanfic)

Chapter 12

Syd POV

Emily and I have really hit it off this past month. She's so nice!

It's lunchtime and I'm at my locker, putting away my books.

??- Hi!

I looked up and smiled once I saw Emily. She's so small and Adorable!

Syd- Hey Emily.*laughing a bit*

Emily- Whatcha dooin?

Syd- Bout to head to lunch, care to join me?

Emily- Id love to*laughing*

We held hands and started walking down the hall.

Moments later we made it to the table with the guys. They really seem to like her.

Jasper- EMILY!

Emily- *laughing* hi Jasper the master!

We all laughed a bit.

Emily- So Syd I wanted to tell you something.

Syd- Yea?

She put her mouth up the my ear and blocked it so no one could see.

Emily- I have a surprise for you. Follow me.

Tyler- I heard that! What you gone show her HAHAHA

I nodded my head ok and she smiled.

Shante POV

This past month has been pure Hell for me.

I'm sitting at a lunch table alone since Steph is sick .I look over to see the guys.

They all seem so happy without me, Even Syd.

That new girl Emily has really seem to taken my place. No one needs me.

Stephanie still hangs out with the guys, I mean there's nothing wrong with that. But I still haven't told her what's wrong with me. I think she gave up on trying to figure it out. I don't blame her.

I feel my stomach ache with pain since I haven't eaten for a few days either. I'm too depressed to even think about chewing food.

I look back up and don't see Syd nor Emily. Whatever.

I get up and grab my notebook to go to the bathroom. As I turn the corner ,my whole world comes completely crashing down as I see Syd and Emily kissing. It's as if any hope of her even considering taking me back has shattered, and is gone forever.

I feel empty. Pain is the only emotion that comes and never leaves. I can't handle this.

I quickly dodge to the bathroom before they see me. As I get inside I lock the door so no one else could come in.

Dropping my notebook, I look into the mirror at myself.

Your so stupid. Who gets this worked up over some girl that you didn't even date?

She wasn't just some girl! I actually loved her, and it took her leaving to make me finally come to my senses. Now it's too late.

I ran into a stall and locked it, Sitting with my knees up to my chest on the toilet seat.

I fished a pencil sharpener from my pocket and began loosening the screws with my nail.

Nothing left but a blade.

Tears rolled down my eyes as I lifted up one of my sleeves. Exposing my healed but permanent cut marks.

I held the blade up to my shaking wrist.