Adopted by 5SOS

19(i know its wrong to but i cant control it)

Yesterday I told calum I loved him. Why? I didn't mean to. did i? Did I have to?

Now it's awkward. Every time we're near each other I just can't help but take a deep breath and make some stupid excuse.

Ashton. He hasn't been around much anymore. He's always out and I feel lonely even though the other boys are right here.

Today is our last day here in California. I swear I'm gunna miss it. My whole life has been here, and now I'm leaving. For good and moving in someplace else.

We were all busy packing our personal items and the instruments. I was taking the drum set apart since Ashton isn't here. It's silent while we're putting everything in boxes or in this case, cases.

I was pulling a drum off of its place but my hand slipped ad it's scrapped my hand.

"dammit" I muttered. It's was bleeding pretty bad.

"hey what are you doing" Ashton said walking up to me.

"doing your dirty work you jerk" I said handing him the cloth.

"what did I do?!" I rolled my eyes and just tried to stay calm. (A/N haha CALM: Calum-Ashton-Michael-Luke)

"oh I dunno. What did you do? Oh yeah your never with the rest of us anymore. How are we suppose to write music and play instruments or go to interviews when your not here. Wherever you are when your not here, it gets lonely. Fans are asking for you. And what are we suppose to say?! Oh I dunno he's BETTRYED US FOR SOME GIRL!" I yelled. I looked around and the other boys just stared wide eyed.

"I was just-"" forget it." I cut him off and walked back to the dressing room. I sat on the couch by the window.

What's wrong with me? Why do I care that... Ashton is with some girl? Why do other boys try to get at me?

While all those question are roaming in my head, our manager calls that we need to get to the airport now.

I lazily get up and ready to start my new life.

New home. New school. New rules. New family. New friends. New life....