I'm with you (Dolan twins fan fiction)

15

I woke up to my phone buzzing.    

My head was still spinning around I may have carried the drinking thing too far. Again..

Omg then I remembered I was not at home. Not in MY bed. And the arm that was around me was definitely not Grace.

I slowly turned around to face Grayson. I wasn't shocked but I wish I was and I wish I wouldn't remember what happened yesterday.

My heart was beating so fast and I felt like I couldn't breath anymore. God he was so beautiful I could watch him like this forever.

In hope Grayson wouldn't wake up I tried to get off his grip and it actually worked.

I saw my dress on his chair so I grabbed it and got into it since I was still wearing Grayson's shirt.

I put the shirt on to the chair but then decided to take it. Maybe I was being selfish for taking his shirt but I loved him and that was the only thing that belonged to Grayson that I could take with me to Virginia. Maybe he only used me yesterday because I was drunk but you know what I don't care because I'm in love with him even if he doesn't love me.

I walked out of his room taking my things. Since it was early in the morning Ethan was also still sleeping on the couch.

Oh god I wish that Grayson was too drunk to remember what happened. I know it's absurd but maybe he thought that it was a dream or something.

I left their house leaving a message that Grace called and I had to leave.

I was still thinking about what happened between Grayson and me. I wish that I could be in his arms again, kissing him.

After I wasn't near the twins house anymore I fell on my knees. I felt weak and I started to cry.

To even think about not being here anymore made me cry. And not to be able to talk about your feelings with the person you love was even worser.

I felt like a mess. I couldn't tell Grayson about my feelings, I couldn't tell anyone. I mean I had like 6 days left and who'd want to have a distance relationship?

For the first time in my life I really had real feelings for someone. I never had real feelings for Chris but this time it was different.

I tried to stand up and walk home. It felt like 2 hours of walking home even if it was a 20 minute way.

When I was finally home Grace greeted me at the door.

"Welcome home honey decided to show up?"

"I'm sorry Grace" I said.

"Maybe I shouldn't go to work today you don't look good. Have you cried?"

"I'm okay" I tried to say but then I started to cry again.

"Omg Alissa what happened" she said hugging me.

"I don't know. I think I needed this" I said wiping away my tears.

"You know that you can tell me everything."

"I know Grace and thank you. But you should go to work today. I'll be fine."

"Call me when you need something" she said before going.

Great I had like 6 days left here and it was a mess already.

I walked into my room changing into something comfortable and went to sleep.

I woke up and it was dark already.

Grayson texted me. Oh great.

'I think we need to talk'

What was I supposed to text back? What if he wanted to meet? What was I supposed to say? Or to do?

'Okay' I texted back.

Grayson texted me that he'd be coming in a few.

What now? I couldn't tell him that yesterday meant something to me. Something big.

But I couldn't say that. I was going to lie and act like it meant nothing to me.

I waited for Grayson to come.

When it rang on the door, my heart literally dropped.

I opened it and Grayson was standing in front of me.

"Hey come in" I said.

"Hi" he said entering.

"I was going to do myself a coffee, want some?"

"Sure" he said.

I tried to avoid looking at him since it was really hard for me.

I gave Grayson a cup of coffee and sat in front of him.

"So" he said.

"So.."

"You probably know what I want to talk about with you" Grayson said.

This was really hard for me now but I had to do this.

"Look Grayson, we were both really drunk and things like this happen, sadly. You don't have to care about what'll happen now with us because I'm cool with it, let's forget about what happened and never talk about it again."

"Oh" was all he said.

"We are Alissa and Grayson, friends okay?"

"Yeah, friends. You know what I should go now" Grayson said leaving without giving
me the chance to say something or to do something.

The things I said, none of them were true. And that's what hurt me the most.