Gone

Part 13

Chapter 13

A month had passed since Jo had left the hospital, after staying there for five days. She and Alex were told that there was nothing else that could be done in order to find their daughter the day after Jo was operated. Alex started to look for Camilla on the park where the body was found at, the day after they received the Detective's news, but had no luck; no one had seen his child around there. Jo was told to rest for at least five days before she could start doing any demanding activities and after her bed rest, she joined Alex in the search of their daughter which had no results. They too were running out of options and hope of ever finding her. They were both lying in bed on each other's arms. Jo had her head nestled on Alex's chest when Alex felt his chest getting wet from Jo's tears.

"Hey..." he whispered and Jo immediately wiped her eyes "It's okay. You can cry..." he said and kissed the top of her head.

"This is all my fault..." she said through her sobs.

"Stop thinking like that honey." He said and rubbed her back to sooth her.

"I should have taken her out of there when I could..."

"You couldn't have known." Alex said and Jo didn't say anything else. The room was filled with her crying noises as she kept releasing the pain she was feeling, but there was nothing that ever be done to free her forever from that pain. After her crying subsided, she lifted her head from Alex's chest and looked at him for a couple of seconds before he bent down to press his lips against hers and kissed her softly. After they pulled apart, Jo replaced her head on her husband's chest once again.

"I have something to tell you..." they both said at the same time and sadly laughed at each other.

"You go first." Alex asked her.

"I... I..." Jo started and then sighed for not being able to form the words to say what she wanted to say. "I knew I was pregnant" she admitted and shut her closed tightly swallowing a lump that had formed on her throat. Alex didn't say anything, he just held her tighter and she knew what he was asking for. He wanted her to continue, "I was going to tell you on her birthday... I found out the day she went missing. After I left the daycare, I saw a shirt saying Big Sister on that little store in front of the hospital and I went there to buy it and I was going to give her as a birthday present..."

"Did you buy it?" he asked her.

"Yes, but then... then someone took our baby and I didn't want to have another one without her being around, so I thought if I didn't think about it too much it'd go away. I ignored it and it went away..."

"Jo, it wasn't your fault either. This baby was never going to be born, you had an ectopic pregnancy."

"But..."

"Shh... I think Abigail is my daughter..." he confessed.

"What? How? Why?" Jo lifted her head up from his chest and started to sit up taking the blankets with her to cover herself with them.

"Have you looked at her?" Alex said looking at his wife eyes and then sitting up too "She looks old enough to be mine and Izzie's child, but that just not it. I could see myself in her..."

"Oh God. What are you going to do?" She asked him.

"I don't know..." he said shrugging his shoulder.

"Don't feel bad for me Alex... You have to know if she is your child too and will go on from there" Alex took Jo's right hand on his squeezing it "Now let's get up... we still have a long day ahead of us" she said and then he took her hand to his mouth to kiss it