ROSE WATER || jerrie thirlwards

CHAPTER 4

PERRIES P.O.V

I looked down at my feet so Leigh-Anne couldn't tell I was crying. Why am I always hurting someone? I can never be perfect, I'm always the problem. I finally made a good choice to stop bullying Jade, but my choice wasn't good in Leigh's eyes. She thought I was going crazy. Isn't it crazy to hit someone every day? Just so you can feel happy? Not in Leigh's head I guess.

I took a deep breath and made myself ready to tell Leigh she was wrong. She can't make me hit Jade? If she really loves to hit Jade she should do it herself. I looked deep into her almost black eyes before opening my mouth and said something.

"Jade doesn't deserve the pain..." Leigh-Anne quickly slapped me on my right cheek. She had just ranted about how it was right to hit Jade and that I was doing everything "the right way" but I couldn't handle being her pet anymore. Leigh had dragged me into one of the bathroom booths this morning before our classes started. I have no idea how she got to know I was going to stop bullying Jade but she didn't seem happy about it.

"Perrie! Listen to me, closely! YOU DO NOT LIKE JADE, SHE IS A NERD, A FUCKING LOSER!" I felt the anger fill my body, she did not just say that. The anger took over my body and I slammed my hand on the yellow coloured wall. Leigh's eyes widened in fear, she knew she didn't want to mess with the mad Perrie.

"What did you just call Jade..?" I said with a harsh voice still a little sweet just to make clear I was angry.

"N-nothing..." Leigh-Anne stuttered, I slapped her on her left cheek before turning around leaving her there all alone, like I used to leave Jade. I didn't even feel bad for leaving her, she actually deserved it apart from Jade.

I made my way to my locker to get my geography stuff since my first class was geography. I put the four numbers in "2584" and my locker went unlocked. I opened up and saw a letter right in front of me.

"To Pezz"

I softly took the letter up from my green math book. It was probably just a letter from Jesy. We used to always send each other letter. The letter was a really light pastel pink, I loved it! I opened the letter and quickly realized that it wasn't Jesy's handwriting. I didn't recognize the handwriting so I decided to just read it and hope for a name sign at the end.

"Dear Perrie Edwards

I really appreciate everything you do to change yourself, but please don't do it for me. I don't want you to lose your popularity because of a friendship? You have two perfect best friends, Jesy and Leigh-Anne, you don't need me. I don't think I fit in with you guys... What will people think? You all of a sudden starts liking the looser? If you're serious about being my friend please tell me the reason? I would love being your friend Perrie, don't get me wrong. But I don't think we're meant to be.

xx Jade"

Without realizing it I was sitting on the floor crying. Did she really mean all of this? I want to be with her, she's like a little Disney character, loving, caring, funny and cute. I haven't spent even one second with her, but I knew she was all those things and more! I needed her!

I heard the bell ring, it was time to get to my class, but I wasn't in the mood. Even though I wasn't in the mood I stood up and closed my locker and locked it. My sight was blurry, the tears caused it. I looked straight forward only three people was in the hallway, they were stressed out because they knew their classes started in about thirty seconds. I didn't hurry though, I just stood there waiting for the hallway to become empty, but it never became empty.