And hugged him "I missed you so much" I told him "i missed you too" he told me "you look different" I told him "you do too your hair is so short" he told me
1 week later
I bought an apartment in LA and I am there now I took my medicine and stretched then ate a salad
I texted Selena and asked her a question
Me: we are friends so I want to ask you if it would be okay to date Justin you guys aren't together but he was yours first so if you say no I'll respect that
Her: I'm okay with it you deserve to be happy after 6 months of not being happy
Me: thank you love you
...
Justin just got out of his relationship with baldloser. He is free
I texted Justin
Me: I like you more than my best friend
There was a knock on the door I answered it and it was Justin "that was fast" I said he kissed me passionately then deepened the kiss then pulled away
We went hiking i kissed him on the cheek Paparazzi were taking our pictures from far away i tried to ignore them
1 month later
I'm watching justin perform with post Malone we've spent a lot of time together i love it i was sitting in the middle filming on snapchat justin came out "aw baby" I cooed the video ended i put it on my snapchat story I'm wearing (pic above #1) i was singing along to Justin'spart
[Justin Bieber & Post Malone:]
Tell me is that deja vu?
Cause you want me and I want you
Tell me is that deja vu?
Cause baby it ain't nothing new, no
Tell me is that deja vu?
Cause you want me and I want you
Tell me is that deja vu?
Cause baby this ain't nothing new, no
[Justin Bieber:]
Oh you actin' reckless
I told you that I need affection
So let me point you in the right direction
It's so important that you get the message
Yeah, I gotta say, gotta say somethin' to you, you, you
I'm on a roll, I'm gonna roll out in that new, new, new
If you wanna do what I wanna do
Well uhm-uhm-uhm
Well I guess that's just deja vu
I put the video on snapchat
Then after Justin performed that song he came back to me and we watched the rest of the show together
One month later I'm on Ellen today to talk about and open up about lupus and how it's affected me i guess I'm wearing pic above and she introduced me i came on and waved i hugged her "hi how are you its been awhile" she greeted "good how are you" i asked "good" she told me we sat down
"so tell us why you went like off the map for six months some people thought you were in a mental Institution and some thought you were pregnant" she said "um yeah well neither, about a year and a half before I went away i was diagnosed with lupus and i never told anyone
and then i got really sick and I couldn't take it anymore one of my closest friends has it and she told me the place she went to and I spent 6 months of my life in there and at first I was completely broken, completely and now I'm healthy and happy"I told her
"you look healthier and your happier how" she asked "before I would always do things that made my friends happier i kept my feelings inside i never did what made me happy, now I'm doing things that make me happy, dating someone because I want to not because the person I really want to be with is my best friends ex and I think I'm learning to handle things differently" i told her "so you and Justin are together right" she asked
"um yes but I don't really like talking about it yes he's mine but he was selenas first and I get that i asked her for permission to ask him out because she means alot to me and i don't throw it in her face and Justin's fans i watch what I do because of them they send death threats to me comments on my instagram you deserve to die and snake emojis that scares me but also I understand why, I get it" i told her
The interview was over i went home
