i almost started crying "dont cry" he said "im not" i snapped i stood up and walked into the bathroom i took all my makeup off and took my contacts out and put my glasses on and put my hair in a pontail tgen walked out i sat down by justin
"im sorry, i snappped at you but i dont talk about it i just dont like getting upset, my dad was my hero and when he died apart of me went with him" i told him i wiped my eyes "what happened" he asked "he was in
the army and he was stationed in california we moved down there and he was shot in the head by a cop who went insane and...... i was with him.... i saw him die.... " the tears came down he wiped them "everyone had a soft side" he said i smiled "so whats with the outfit" i asked "um i took your advice and stopped being a mamas boy" he said
"I never told you to stop being a mamas boy, your a good boy, stay that way" i told him "but i thought you were in to bad guys" he said " thats why you are dressed like me you didnt take my advice....you took my look....because you wanted to impress me, because you like me" i told him he nodded i looked at him "i like you too" i blurted "really" he asked "the real you not the one who wore clothes like me" i told him
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At school 2 days later
"Will you go out with me? Love justin" I read a note i rolled my eyes then smiled because hes a cheesy ass "oh you have a note" someone said i turned around and shut my locker "really dude?" I said "what?" Justin said
"you are so cheesy but your cute so its okay" i told him "will you go out with me or not" he asked i pushed him against the wall and forecefully kissed him then pulled away "does that answer your question" i told him he smiled "where are you taking me" "i dont know yet" he told me
2 weeks later im wearing (pic above) and about to go to school the fair is in town and its friday night and normally i wouldnt want anything to do with those places but justin still hasnt taken me on our first date he says he wants to be perfect and my mom is trying hard she started taking anti depressants recommended by the doctor and she's going to therapy 3 times a week I go with her sometimes were healing slowly
" Mom the Fair is in town maybe we can go together like we used to before, you know"
"Oh no sweetheart, we both know you hate fairs and carnivals and i dont want to go, sorry" she told me "oh, i um okay bye" i went to school
Justin sat by me at lunch with his friends "i got it our first day is at the Fair tonight" justin said "im good" i said "dont tell me you dont like the fair, who doesnt like the fair" ryan says "i hate the fair" i said "what you were talking about it last week how
you wanted to go what happened" justin said "i just dont want to go okay stop" i snapped "are you on your period or something" chaz says i rolled my eyes "no im not on my fucking period shut the fuck up" i said justin looked at me "i'm not" i told him "noah if your not on your period then whats wrong" justin asked i looked at him
I wrapped my arms around his neck and rubbed it with my thumb he wrapped his arms around my waist
"Look, i did want to go, i do want to go I havent wanted to go to the fair since before my dad died but I wanted to go with my mom and when I asked her this morning she blew me off like it was nothing" i told him "I'll take you to the Fair" justin says "please" he said "ugh fine ill go with you tonight" i told him he tried to kiss me "nope not until the date" i told him
