He's my best friend "look I don't want to pick a fight but I've seen it all I've been messed up since before I was born I was addicted to heroin the day my mom found out she was pregnant" I told them "man that's fucked up" they said "yeah" I told them
1 year later I'm leaving and I'm so happy I get to leave a lot has happened in a year they kept me in here because my mom wanted me to stay and I've done everything they asked I even have my burgundy shirt that's for good behavior I haven't seen my family since I graduated
My mom and Justin are coming to get me I packed my stuff in a small box and Hugged the girls And walked through the door with my box and the police officer
I walked into the building where my mom and Justin were when I was in the same room with them and my mom Signed the release form and I hugged Justin and her and stated crying because I was happy
And we went home I showered changed into my real clothes and I applied for jobs at Victoria's Secret, McDonald's, and target in Los Angeles i cleaned my room and then justin came into my room and we started talking
"So how does it feel to be home" he asked "it feels good i missed you so much but I feel like it was good for me like when I went there i had the worse attitude ever but being in there and when my mom didn't want me to come
home i cried for hours all I wanted to do was come home and I knew to do that i had to change my attitude and
my life" I told him "being locked up was torture I went crazy in there we have thing called time out it's a room with absolutely nothing but walls it's
horxrible and I went there on my own and locked myself in there because I needed to be alone I wanted to be in
there" I told him "it's okay you never have to go back if you stay on the right path I can help you do you want to be a singer" Justin asked "what of course I do but that's your thing" "it can be your thing too" he told me
4 months later I got the job at Victoria's secret and Got a new phone number and working towards my goal in life which is to become something I released my first ever song and I wrote it's called relapse *anna clendening* and I made a video for it to it's number one in 40 countries I'm going to college
2 years later
I'm one of the biggest celebrities in America, I dropped out of collage finished my first ever tour with almost every arena sold out I'm on top of the world or i was the fame is to much everyone is expecting me to be perfect I felt trapped people are treating me like I'm not a human being people come up to me and don't even ask
for my picture they just take it Paparazzi follow me constantly and I'm sick of it I can't even get food after a workout without them harassing me I can't even hang out with Justin anymore without them assuming and we're dating and it's too much
Two months ago I put myself back in Madison I want back I didn't do anything wrong I'm not a bad person anymore I've been clean for two years three if you count Madison but I needed to come back because I needed a break from the world I'm not technically an inmate in Madison I didn't do anything bad but I'm here because I can't keep living like a caged animal
I write alot in here
The first day I wrote " I'm back here at Madison don't worry I chose to come here a lot has happened since I was here before I didn't do anything bad the second time I chose to come here because I'm one of the biggest celebrities in the world I've sold our Arena after Arena I've managed to get 11 number ones in the last 2 years Paparazzi follow me everywhere fans don't even let me speak to them they just want a picture
I came here because I need a break from the world and everyone in it Madison teaches you discipline escapes the outside world that's what I wanted an Escape but I also came here because I think I'm falling in love with a boy I can never be with why you ask because he's my step brother....
