Living In Color ~ PHAN SOULMATE AU

~ Five ~

Phil wakes up in the hospital bed again, except this time he freaks out when he realizes he can't see color. Everything was black and white.

Phil rushed out of the bed over to Dan, he was sleeping. It must have been the middle of the night. Phil slipped into Dans bed careful not to wake him up.
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Dan woke up to find Phil laying beside him. He didn't know what to do, he didn't even know the guy.

"Phil? Can you please get out of my bed?"

"Hmm? Oh I'm so sorry dan. I'll be outside if you need anything."

"No stay. I want to talk you about all this. I'm still trying to wrap my head around everything."

"Oh okay, so what do you want to know?"

"Am I gay?"

Phil couldn't speak. He couldn't take this anymore. A tear fell from his eye.

"Y-yes"

"Don't cry Phil. I just don't get it. I'm not a faggot."

"Dan, you can't just say that. You are my soulmate." Phil was losing hope though... why couldn't he see color?

"I don't think we are soulmates Phil. Why can we only see black and white? I'm meant to be with someone else. It must have been a glitch."

"Dan you don't understand, you hit your head.. we are soulmates you'll see." Phil looked away from Dan, he couldn't look at him anymore.

"No, you don't understand! I'M NOT GAY AND YOU HAVE TO LEAVE! I'm done with you. Bye Phil."

Phil got up from the bed and ran out of the room with tears streaming out of his eyes. The nurses caught him as he fell to the ground. How could this happen to him, how could he have lost his soulmate? He can't live without Dan, he's nothing without Dan.

"LET ME GO!" The nurses obeyed and Phil ran out of the hospital into the darkness that lied outside.
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Phil rushed into his flat and ran to Dans room. He was angry, how could dan not understand. Phil was frustrated, all the color in his life has disappeared and it was all Dan's fault. Phil started taking apart everything in dans room. He knocked over dans desk, he found the printed out picture of him and Dan that they took that night in 2009 and through it hard against the wall and wasn't satisfied until he could hear the shattering of the glass frame.

Do it. He doesn't love you. Free yourself from all the pain of this ridiculous soulmate system. It's not that hard, use the glass from the frame. End it right now, Dan won't miss you. You are a faggot and you don't deserve to be with him anyway. You don't matter, you never did. Dan has more subscribers, your subs are only here for Dan, none of them will miss you. Just do it. JUST DO-

Phil couldn't take it anymore. The voices were too much for him. He found a sticky note lying on the floor and scrambled to find a pen.

Dear Dan,

You probably won't find this but I want you to know,
This was the most fun I've ever had.

I love you,
Phil.

Phil took the closest piece of glass from the carpet. He glided it along his finger tips, blood slowly dripping out of his skin. It was sharp enough to do the job. He slowly swiped deep and long lines into his skin, with him feeling a little more relieved each time.

Two for his beautiful brown eyes

Three for the amount of years they have been together

He just kept cutting until his mind was numb. He soon realized that the cutting wouldn't finish the job. He struggled to crawl over to Dans washroom. Inside the medicine cabinet he found some of Dans anti-depressants. He took the bottle and crawled over to the bathtub, he was losing consciousness, he had to fight through it though, he needed to last just long enough to take the pills.

He struggled to open the bottle but finally succeeded. He took a handful, looked down to his down completely black arms from the blood, and swallowed the pills in one gulp. He decided to try and remember the colors in his life that he had lost.

Dans eyes, brown with tints of yellow

His blue and green bed sheets

The colors of the nightclub in 2009

Dans beautiful brown hair

And finally

The red sports car that hit dan not that long ago.

And then everything went black.
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Dan remembered everything. All of a sudden he got a huge headache and once he opened his eyes he remembered every little thing. When he met Phil three years ago, the colors, when he raced Phil to the slide not that long ago.

"Oh my god. Louise!! Why is everything black and white???"

"You don't remember anything you said since the accident?"

"No?"

"Do you love Phil?"

"Uh yeah?! He's my soulmate!"

"Oh no." Louise realized what had happened. "We need to get home to Phil right now. I'm worried that-"

"WHAT? What did I say?!"

"You said some pretty mean things, but we have to go."
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Dan ran into Phil's room, he wasn't there... he checked the kitchen, he was nowhere to be found. Finally he checked his own room. And there he saw it. A pool of black liquid on his carpet. Of course he couldn't tell what it was because he can't even see color. Dan was worried though.

He followed the trail of black liquid until he reached the bathroom.

"Oh my god. PHIL!" Dan gasped and Louise ran into the bathroom immediately after. Dan rushed up to limp body and checked for pulse. Nothing.

"No. No. NO! Phil. My lion. You're going to be okay. Just wake up. You can do it. Stay strong. Don't leave me." Dan was crying now, and shaking Phil's body, hopelessly. There was no point. He had already slipped away from this world and on to the next.

Louise picked Dan up and embraced him as he bawled into her shoulder. Louise was now crying as well.

After, they called someone to take Phil's body away.

Dan went back into the room, where he found the sticky note. This made Dan cry even more.

He couldn't take it anymore.

"I'll see you soon lion."

He went into his closet, found a rope, tied a noose and hung himself from the ceiling fan. He was greeted by death, with his favorite color. Black.

A/N: this was so hard for me to write. I'm gonna do one more chapter as an epilogue. Remember, don't cry, craft.

-zoe :(