out of the box

(( mono; one))

                         "dream theory"

I was resting my head on my father's chest when I was four, I remember mimicking the movement of his stomach and listening intently to his breathing. It was weird. The pattern of his breath when he slept and while he was awake was different. While he was sleeping there was 2 seconds of nothing before his stomach inhaled again.

And that's when I thought, maybe that's why when we're sleeping we feel like we're falling, or dying, or drowning, because our minds are craving to be dead. They want to stop breathing in that second but our brain reacts and we wake up, inhaling fast and heavy. Gasping for breath because we woke up during those seconds of nothingness.

Our minds lost, and that's the message our whole existence is trying to teach us. That maybe we aren't suppose to choose our head over our heart, and in the end our minds cannot tell us what to do and that we are stronger than we think. That we can overpower the mind while we're sleeping, that the statement, "I could do that with my eyes closed," becomes tue. That overcoming the fears our minds create is much easier than set out to be.