Ellipsis

Chapter 4

They say one should be happy when people die because it would mean that their suffering on earth has ended. They say one should accept the reality that our lives are not ours to keep forever and when someone dies, we just have to let go and keep moving forward.

When I saw my father's body disintegrate on the flames of the pyre, it's hard to agree to what they say. How can I be happy if the one who died is the person who gave me the opportunity to live? How can I move on if the person who believes in me will never ever be at my side again?

I stared at the placid waters of the lake as I recollect the memories of Marcus. He had been such a good father to me.

I don't deserve his sacrifice.

I'm nothing compared to him. If he lived today, he must have been doing well as one of the leaders. But me? I'm completely useless.

A lot of innocent people died and suffered because of me and yet here I am still living this life I don't deserve.

Why does he have to protect me?

I sighed as a prickle of tears threatened to come out. I blinked my eyes and suppressed the liquid to fall.

It has been three weeks since that fateful day and until now, I can't accept the fact that my hero is gone.

I felt someone's hand patted my shoulder. I looked up and saw Drake. On his back were the other pack members.

"You never visited the pack house." He said.

I just bit my lip and looked away back to the lake.

He sat beside me. "You know you can depend on us too Allen. We are your pack, we should support each other." Drake said.

I swallowed. "I don't deserve to be in your pack. I don't deserve to be a part of this clan. Kendrick was right. I'm nothing but a burden."

"Kendrick's an asshole." Drake muttered and I heard the sound of agreement from the others.

"We are here to help you cope up with this. In our world, this is normal. You have to learn to adapt. And we are ready to help you through it." Chris added.

I heaved out a deep sigh. They haven't given up on persuading me. Ever since the incident happened, they protected me at all cost but all I did was shut them out.

"But-"

Drake put his finger against my lip to silence me. "No more buts. You are coming with us and start a new day. We cannot just let you sit here looking so down every day. There's more to life than this."

And so I went with them back to the pack house and was rendered speechless with their surprise welcome celebration.

And for the first time in three weeks, I smiled.

...

The party had been great. They made me feel like I do belong in the pack. But Kendrick wasn't there. He is still angry of me for I was the reason why many people of Ravenwoods died-children and adult alike.

The bloodhounds were brutal. It took seven hours before the clan has finally succeeded in throwing them out of our borders.

But I know they are coming back. And it was because of me. They are after me and my blood.

I tossed around my bed. I cannot sleep. I cannot understand why they are after me. What is so special about my blood?

I decided to sit on the edge of the large bed. After almost a month of staying, I cannot seem to embrace the idea of getting used to living here in the Manor-living under the same roof with the Alpha and his son, Kendrick who hates every bit of me.