*TRIGGER WARNING*
3:00 AM
I wake up in tears. I'm having trouble breathing and then it all comes back to me. The accident. My mom. The blood. Her screams. The gunshots. Everything. I try to distract myself by putting my Spotify playlist on shuffle. Everything's good until her favorite song comes on. I cant take it. I throw my phone at the wall while screaming make it stop. "It's all your fault. it should've been you. You're so pathetic for letting it happen. You deserve to die anyways." The voices in my head hiss. " STOP! STOP IT PLEASE! MAKE IT STOP! MAKE IT STOP PLEASE!" I scream begging my thoughts of the accident to banish. The last thing I remember is grabbing something from my mom's jewelry box before everything goes black.
5:00 AM
I wake up again but this time I'm on the floor. I feel a stinging sensation in my arms and legs. There's blood all over the carpet and a razor blade in my hand. I look down to notice the deep raw slits on my thighs and wrist.Then I remember. I remember me screaming at the voices in my head. I remember me throwing my phone at the wall and shattering the screen. I remember me grabbing my razor from my mom's jewelry box and pressing it against my skin as hard as I possibly could on my thighs, leaving blood dribbling from my legs onto the floor. I remember feeling the need to do more damage. I remember making long, deep slits up and down my wrist. I remember still craving more pain. I remember punching the wall with the blade in my fist. then I remember blacking out. "shit" I mumble " not again"
A/N
I'm sorry this chapter is so short and is left on a clifthanger . Also it went from 0-100 real quick. I hope I didn't scare any of you off or trigger any of you guys too much. This chapter is a really important chapter though( I think) especially the beginning so please stay tuned. And sorry for not updating yesterday I got really into the show shameless and I just wasn't feeling too good about life hence the lack of motivation/ creativity.
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