His Smile// Adopted By Brendon Urie 2 {{COMPLETE}}

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Get ready for some serious Phan shipping.
We were heading back to their flat

While Dad and I were in the back seat, the two British lads were in the front seat...holding....hands. I almost passed out. I shipped Phan too much. I look up to Brendon with big eyes, and I smile. He smiles back.

When we get to the flat, everyone piles out. Dan wanted to record first, so that's what we did. It was talking about the LGBT community and our place in it.

"Will you edit this out?" Dan nods. "Sometimes I feel like I'm in the wrong body...Like I was supposed to be born a  boy." Dan nods again.

"I can relate to that. You and Phil are the only ones who get to know, but I was born a girl." My eyes widen. "It may seem hard to believe, but it's true."

We continue on with the video and finish it. Then it was my turn to record with Phil. Dan left to get food and cerial for the morning.

Phil and I recorded about our spirit animals.

After we took the test, Phil read out what it meant. Mine was a wood pecker.

"Do you ever feel like you will  never do enough in the world? Feel like you'll die before you make a mark? Feel like life is meaningless and nothing matters? It's the excerstential I can't spell wood pecker!" Phil read to me. I look down, a feeling started to bubble up, a feeling I've never felt before.

I could stop the tears from running down my face as I stared, open eyed at the floor. Phil shook me, but it didn't help. I started to fall to the floor and into the feetle position, still crying. Phil could do nothing but go get Brendon. Brendon came in and hugged me, but it didn't help. Not at all.

2 hours.

I was on that floor, crying, for two whole hours. My body hurt and my eyes itched. I heard the door open up, and some frantic muttering before I heard someone come in.

He sat down beside me and put a hand on my shoulder.

"You know you do matter. You ARE here for a reason. Even if you dont feel like it." It was Dan. Dan was here to help me. "You need to sit up." He helped me sit up beside him.

I sniffed "Wh-why is th-this happening?"

"You just had an excerctecial crisis. I get them about twice a  month. Dont worry, you'll get better. I promise."

We stayed there for about thirty minutes.

"I think I'm better." I say. Dan nods and gets up, then helps me up. We go into the living room, where Phil and Brendon are. As soon as Brendon sees me, he has got me trapped in a hug.

"I was very worried, Lydia, are  you okay?" He asks, pulling back slightly. I nod and he hugs me again. Then he looks at Dan. "What happened."

"Something must have triggered her into having an excerstential crisis..." Dan said. Phil almost was about to panic.

"Oh no....I think I caused it..." he said franticly. "We recorded a video and she got the woodpecker....like you...." Dan ran over to calm him.

"It's okay Phil. We didn't know." I say, trying to reassure him. He gives a weak smile.

"Okay..." He says.

We continued on with the day, laughing and having a grand ol time.

Sorry it's so short. I'm going to Florida soon so I can type there :3