Eren X Mikasa, Summer

4, What am I Doing?

Eren

Petra asked me to clean her room; Mikasa's room that is... I didn't understand why, but I did it anyways. Petra and Levi were like my parents to me, since my actual parents just walked out on my life since I was ten.

Things have been different since Mikasa came, a little too different if you ask me.

I really admired her long glossy hair, her pale skin, and her shimmering gray eyes. Sometimes I couldn't help but look.

I grabbed a broom and swept up Mikasa's room making sure that every speck of dust was cleaned up.

I don't think Petra told her about our small rodent problem... but she'll find out eventually.

I smiled at the thought and cleaned up the dust with the dust pan. I don't know how to reach to her, how to express my feelings...

I'm not even sure how I felt about her to be honest... it's only been a day and could I be drooling over her already?

I shook of the thought as I felt my face heat up and gathered, bleach, a bucket, and a mop I left at the door way.

I think I should hang out with Armin again, it's been a couple of weeks and I barely saved up enough money to buy myself a cell phone.

I poured the bleach into the bucket and flattened out the base a bit with water. I grabbed the mop and dipped it into the bucket.

Mikasa left around 1:54 in the afternoon and now it's 4:45pm. I wonder if she got lost, although I'm sure Levy and Piano showed her.

They know this city, they should know where to go I think.
I shrugged the thought off, I know they'll be fine. There in good hands, I thought as I twisted the ropes of the mop and squeezed out the extra water.

I threw out the gray rug and mopped the floor gliding the mop across the white tiles.

I know so little on Mikasa's past and her personality. I know she likes reading, I can hear her often squealing time to time about her book. It's either the book is interesting, or she needs professional help.

I smiled as I finished mopping and poured half of the remaining bleach in the toilet and a little in the sink, and I took out the mat in the shower and pored the bleach in the tub.

As I let the bleach kill the germs of the toilet, sink, and tub. I got Pine-Sol and mopped it across the floor again.

I hated the smell of bleach so I put Pine-Sol to get rid is the aggravating smell.

After I finished, I grabbed a sponge and some soap to wipe the shower wall, washed it off and finished.

I had left over water in the pot so I decided to make my way outside to dump it in the grass.

After I put the cleaning supplies away, I went outside and tossed the soapy water on the front lawn.

I wiped my forehead with my hand and kept my hand there looking towards the canyon, I wonder what Mikasa's doing right now-

I heard distant voices from the right of me on the dirt path, that must be Mikasa! I dropped the bucket besides the porch and quickly walked over to Mikasa. I need to find a way to causally approach her...

I tapped my pockets as I walked and found a lollipop I found in the kitchen cabinets. Got it.

As I was about to the pass Petra and Levi's house, I saw Mikasa, Jean, Levy, and Piano talking with him.

That bastard... I felt rage rise in my body as I clenched my hands.

Him and I never got along. Never. Especially since school just ended, he'd always push me in the locker rooms and would ruin my day.

I wasn't that against him because of that, I was against him ever since that fateful day in freshman year...

I don't know how to ever forgive him for what he's done... he broke his promise and back stabbed me, badly...

I need to find a way to spilt them apart... I don't know what I'll do if he takes Mikasa away...

Mikasa and Levy and Piano started to make their way towards me. I put the lollipop in my mouth with the white stick pointing out and I leaned against the maya blue wall.

Act causal...

Mikasa was talking to them about their interests as the walked besides her, they all stopped as they saw my presence.

"What ya doing?" She said tilting her head.
"I think I should be asking you that." I took the lollipop from my mouth before I spoke.
"Why's that?" She furrowed her brows.

"Stay away from, Jean. He's not what you think he is." I said as I started to walk away.

  "He's better than you, that's for sure." I heard her say as I took the first couple of steps back to the house.

  Her words shot me through the chest, just like Cupid did. I felt anger and hurt boil inside me.

  How is HE better than I am?! My fist tighten more, I spun around quickly about to punch the wall.

  But before I could punch anything at all, my knuckles were centimeters away from touching Mikasa's beautiful face.

  She stared at me blankly, showing no signs of fear or emotion at first, but I immediately saw hurt and anger in her sky gray eyes.
Wh-What am I doing...? This... this is wrong...

  "I can't believe you..." she said coldly.
I could tell that she was fighting her tears back.

  She walked past me bumping my shoulder with hers, and grabbed Levy's and Piano's hands.

  "Let's go you two." She mumbled soothingly to them and glared at me as she and the two stormed into the house.

  I stood still slowly allowing guilt to drown me. What have I done...?

  I almost hit someone that meant so much...?
  I made her furious with me... I wouldn't be surprised, I would be too...

I put my arm down and placed my other on my forehead and over my eyes.

  What am I doing...? Trying to chase after a girl like this...?