Eren X Mikasa, Summer

7, Air

Eren

"I'm sorry..." I mumbled at her door. I heard a sigh of annoyance and footsteps fading away. Great Eren, you really did it now. I hung my head low allowing shame to fall upon me, as I trudged my sorry ass back to my room.

  Why do I continue to do this...? I kept replaying the whole scene in my head over and over again. I reached my room, opening the door harshly and slamming it behind me. I threw myself on my bed.

  I kept replaying when Mikasa asked me how am I her concern or part of her business. I felt my face blush, it was so cute when she was mad. How her eyes narrowed, her jaw clenched tightly to see her perfect teeth, and how her face blushed.

  She was so perfect, but yet I still continue to piss her off and annoy her. I don't know how else to show her, that... I love her.

  My stomach dropped and my heart fluttered. Wh-What?! Why are you thinking this Eren! No way she could ever love someone like you!! I let out a sigh of annoyance into my sheets.

  After all, I am just a stupid country boy that has fallen hopelessly in love with a perfect intelligent city girl. I honestly don't deserve her... but I don't want Jean to have her either, it's too dangerous. I felt my hands clench tightly in a ball as I grabbed a handful of my sheets.

  I can't let them get any closer, I just can't. I felt memories of hurt when I saw Jean and Mikasa smiling and laughing together, it hurt that I couldn't be apart of that for being a stupid jerk, it was the only way I could react... you stupid jerk! I scolded myself.

Another horrible sigh escaped my lips, as I sat up. Maybe I should go get some air... I threw my feet off the bed and quietly headed down stairs, careful not to wake anyone in the house.

  I walked into the kitchen and poured myself some left over tea Petra made earlier. I washed my face in the sink to clear my thoughts, too many emotions we're running through my head and I was afraid to let them free.

  Maybe I should go outside for some fresh air, I thought as I wiped my face with a towel. I grabbed my cup and to the courtyard, I jumped when I didn't expect to see.

  Don't freak out Eren, chill the fuck out! My mind yelled as I saw Mikasa sitting at the edge of the floor allowing her feet to dangle a bit. Why was she here when she has a balcony! A perfect view! I shook my head, never mind that. I need to talk to her.

  Maybe this was a chance to say sorry or actually have a conversation with her. A real conversation.
  I let out a quite sigh of nervousness, here goes nothing.

  I walked towards Mikasa as quietly as I could. She kept staring off into the distance as if she was lost in thought.
I slowly sat next to her and placed my cup down beside me.

  She didn't move or speak when I sat next to her; she didn't acknowledge me. Was she ignoring me? Did she no longer want to look my way?!

Fuck Eren! You really messed up and now- "What do you want?" Mikasa interrupted my thoughts.

"What..?"
"I said, what do you want?" She repeated herself with slight hinge of anger in her tone. She didn't take her eyes off from the distance.
"I..." I was speechless, I was stupid enough not to think through what I was going to say to her. I had nothing to say...

  "Can I ask you something...?" She said changing topic. I felt a wave of confusion hit me, I nodded.
She glanced at me then looked back to the distance, "Why are you always such a stupid jerk?"

"Maybe because you act like an idiot sometimes." I barked.

WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU EREN!!

I scolded myself as I mentally gave myself a face palm.

She let out a soft sigh then glanced at me, then looked back into the distance.  I needed to say something to her with out messing things up...

"Mikasa I-" she once again cut me off and rested her head on my shoulder.
"I don't wanna hear it." She barked.

I felt my face turn red, was I supposed to let her beautiful head rest on my shoulder? I glanced at the top of her head and looked back into the distance.

  The crescent moon was shining its dark light upon the both of us as the stars twinkled. The wind blew at the both of our faces gently, her hair blew a bit with it.

  "May I make a suggestion?" I asked suddenly.
"Hm?"

I moved my hand towards the bottom of her neck, "I think you should cut your hair a bit."

She didn't say anything or even a nod, she stayed exactly where she was. I glanced at her face tilting my head a bit and saw her eyes shut tightly.

  Her was looked so pure when she slept; she seemed peaceful and I would do anything to keep that peace with her.

I felt a small smile crept up my face and hesitantly rested my head gently on hers.

My eyes started to grow tired as I tried fighting the sleep.

Maybe all we need was some air...