(hiatus) paralyzed + m.yg

Part 2 ; Bus Stop

Yoongi was bewildered. His eyes reflects the emptiness. He sits on the couch for about fifteen minutes already.

"Hey, Min Yoongi, come and eat."

Yoongi keep stay still even the sound calling him. It's Kim Namjoon, the only one who lives with Yoongi and take care of him. Namjoon is Yoongi's cousin.

Namjoon still waiting for Yoongi's answer for a seconds. After that, Yoongi nods slowly.

"Hm, good. Let's eat!" Said Namjoon as he left Yoongi and going to the dining room.

Yoongi then close his eyes, and take a deep breath.

He walks towards the dining room.

"What are these?" Yoongi asks.

"Erm.. Kimbap, you know? I buy them, since i can't cook." Replies Namjoon.

Yoongi nods. Then he take a seat and eats the food.

"Hey..." Namjoon calls Yoongi while he's eating.

"... You don't want to try to get a job? You must have your own money. It's time to change, Yoongi-ya."

Yoongi just stay still. He keeps eating with his eyes focusing on one place, he's bewildered.

Namjoon sighed. But he's okay with all of these.

"Min Yoongi, you.."

"I know." Yoongi replies before Namjoon finish his words.

Yoongi smiled lightly to Namjoon, "I know, Namjoon. Soon, i'll find my job."

Namjoon only sighs. Then he continue eating.

After a minutes of sience, Yoongi get up, put the plates on the kitchen and took his jacket.

"Ya, before you go, at least take a shower first!"

Yoongi stand still, "Don't worry i just go for not too long."

Namjoon take a look at how messy is Yoongi. His hair isn't tidy at all, and his face bever shows a better side than 'nothingness'

Namjoon sighs, then Yoongi is going to walks away.

"Hey.." Namjoon calls Yoongi. Yoongi turns back to see Namjoon.

"Don't go home late. If you find nothing then just go home."

Then Yoongi smiles bitterly, "I have a good feeling about today, i'll find her." Then Yoongi walks out from their home.

Namjoon sighs again and drink his water.

"I should stop him or he'll hurt himself more." Said Namjoon.


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Yoongi walks without any spirit. He's on his way to the bus stop. It takes about ten minutes to take a walk from his house to the bus stop.

At a bread shop, he stops and he buys two breads.

Yoongi looks the happiest when it's evening, when he's on his way to the bus stop. Even though he smiles bitterly, at least he is smiling when its evening

Yoongi even whistle a song. He is humming a song that 'she' likes.

"You're going to me today... Right?" Yoongi said to himself


When his eyes catches the bus stop, his walks become faster.

There still nothing on the bus stop. No peoples, and no bus.

He then take a sit on the bus stop.

Yoongi plays with his feet. Kicks the rocks, or else.

A minutes later, the first bus appears. He immediately stands up and waiting for the bus.

The bus stop, and the doors open. He waited patiently, hoping that his feelings are true. He hopes he can met her again.

He hopes, and he really miss her.

The peoples are started to coming out from the bus. Don't even know why but Yoongi can feel the nervouses coming through his body.

"How come i feel like this? Is she really coming?" Yoongi thinks.

He saw some peoples started to coming down. Mostly students. This is already 6PM so some of the students may have already going home.

Yoongi waits patiently. He looks at the passengers one by one.

He found nothing. He didn't find her. Yoongi sighed heavily.

"Fine, then. Maybe the next one."

The first bus is already gone. But Yoongi is still there, with his two breads.

Then he sits again.

"This time.. You still won't come back, right?" Said Yoongi with a bitter voice as he scoffs.

But still, Yoongi will always waits there until about 9PM. He never miss a day.

He's still just wait until the second bus appears.

He immediately stand up just like usual.

His eyes suddenly widened. He's nervous without even a single reason. He don't know why, he never been this nervous before since he's waiting her in this bus stop.

Just like before, the peoples are mostly students and some ahjummas.

Yoongi take a look one by one, he really hopes he can found her today.

The peoples who comes out are slowly decreasing. As the peoples pass by are become more lesser, he lose hope.

Yoongi sighs slowly. He thinks the bus is going to go away so he's ready to sit again.

"Wait, wait!"

Yoongi hear a sound of a girl just on the bus, even though he can't clearly listen. But all he know, the bus driver who is ready to drive the bus, suddenly stopped since the girl screams to him.

Yoongi can see that the driver is giving the girl some grumbling. Even though, Yoongi can't see the girl.

The girl then come out from the bus with an annoying face.

Yoongi shocked as he saw the girl. He immediately stand up. His mouth is half opened.

"Yo..." Yoongi can't finish his own words. His body is trembling.

The girl sees Yoongi and when Yoongi looks at her with shock, the girl suddenly make a confused face, and a little bit scariness on her face.

"I.. Is that you?" Yoongi starts to walking with a little step.

After look at the girl deeper, Yoongi who trembled, he drops the bread he grab without he knowing.

The girl seems to walks a little step backwards as she looks at Yoongi with a strange face.

"You.. Young... Youngjoo-ya..."

"Youngjoo-ya!!" Yoongi runs strongly into her. The girl automatically trying to runs and Yoongi quickly pulls her arms and pulls her into his embrace.

Yoongi hugs her tightly, and he started to shed tears. He hugs her really tight, just like a precious thing that he won't lose.

"I.. I miss you so much.." Said Yoongi to her as he sobs.

The girl really shocked so she started to revolts from his embrace.

The girl sstruggles Yoongi hugs her really tight.

And then, the girl push Yoongi's body strongly as she can. Yoongi, who surprised, he just look at her with an unbelieveable-look.

"HEY!!"

After the girl yells, Yoongi do nothing except look at her not believe. Yoongi freeze.

Since Yoongi is freezing at his place, the girl use the chance to running from him.

The girl runs as fast as she can, leaving Yoongi who totally speechless.

Yoongi who had tears before, he wipes his tears, and slowly walks towards the bread. He picks up the bread and walks away.

His body is leaving the bus stop, but his mind can't stop thinking of her.

"Kim Youngjoo... "

"...Why did you being like that?" Said Yoongi with a bitter voice

Yoongi scoffs, and he sighs heavily.

"I will... Find you." Then he walks home.


It takes ten minutes for Yoongi to back home.

He opens the door and put his shoes in front the door.

"What? How can you ho home this fast?" Namjoon yells from the bedroom. A seconds later, Namjoon approaches Yoongi in the living room.

Namjoon look at Yoongi not believe. As Namjoon knew, in this two years, Yoongi never, and never returns home before 9 o'clock.

"Is he... giving up?" Namjoon trying to solve the puzzle on his mind alone. He just still can't believe that Yoongi go home this fast.

Yoongi scoffs, and he offers the bread to Namjoon.

"Huh? Breads? So you just come out to buy a bread for us?"

Yoongi shakes his head, "No. I just waiting her and..."

"Nevermind, just eat the bread." Said Yoongi as he leaves Namjoon behind and enters his bedroom.

Namjoon still can't believe. Yoongi didn't even finish his words earlier. He already waiting for her and then what?

Then Namjoon decided to don't mind about that, he picks one bread, walking to the kitchen and he put the other bread inside the refrigerator.

Yoongi, who is in his bedroom, he's busy to thinks about what's going on a minutes ago.

He then tries to sleep. He's laying his body.

But then, he can't. He gets up and sit on his bed.

Yoongi shakes his head, and decide to back to the bed again.

He close his eyes again, trying to found dreams.

But he failed again. He gets up again and sit again.

Yoongi sighs roughly, and he sits on the bed, and he crumpled up his hair.

"Aaghh!!!" Yoongi screams.

"Kim Youngjoo.. Kim Youngjoo..." he started to mumbling uncontrollably. This is happening again.

He crumpled up his hair strongly.

"Don't!!!" He screams again.

"Kim Youngjoo!!!"

Yoongi's screams breaks and changes into a crying.

He's crying as he pull his hair strongly.

His heart feels hurt so much. He can feel the hurt stabs his heart.

Yoongi sobs. His right hand approaches his heart and he punches his chest, he's trying to swept the hurt away.

But in fact, he can't. As long as he's thinking Youngjoo, his heart always been hurt like this.

Then he screams loudly.

"AAAGH!!"

And that time, the night, Yoongi seems to trapped in the sadness of the dreadful night. He's crying as loud as he can.


In the outside, Namjoon who is listens to Yoongi's stressful voice from outside Yoongi's room, he sighs deeply.

Just really, he can't let his brother suffers like this. It has been two years and Namjoon can't see Yoongi suffering like this any longer.

Namjoon close his eyes as he hear Yoongi's crying sound is getting louder.

"I.. I should stop him suffering like this, no matter what." Namjoon mumbling, as he try to walks away and enters his own room, leaving Yoongi who cried stressfully.

To be Continued...

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Hi! I'm so so sorry for the laaateee updateㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ i'm on my mid-term exams weeks and i have almost no time to makes an idea for this. But tomorrow is Saturday so i'm going to write 2 until 3 parts>< i hope my idea could flowing just like a falls, Yas! XD bcs when i'm tired or stress or else i'll write these thingsㅠㅠ

Anyway, see you soon on upcoming chapters♡ i hope you enjoying reading this and dont forget to vote! And i really hope you could understand my engrishㅠ ㅅ ㅠ tysm!♡