Our Denied Love...

Chapter 5

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I immediately knew who it was at that moment.
"Hello? Are you still there?" Chloe asked.
"Why did you come back?" I asked full of annoyance.
"You're making it sound like you don't want me here babe."
"First don't call me babe and second of all of course I don't want you here. That's why I left your ass. Stop trying to run back to me like I will always be there for you. I don't care if you are rich or if you are broke. You're not going to be in my life."
Beep
After I hung up I blocked her number and threw my phone on the couch. I walked to the kitchen to grab some water. I made my water and took it outside and sat down on the backyard porch. Why does my life have to be this way. First my friend are pissing me off and then Chole starts irritating me again. I also feel bad about Hazel and Ava's family problems. Not to mention school. I took a sip of my water and let out a sigh.
-Hazel's POV-
When Jackson and Mark left the room my mind was still on the situation that happened at the house even though there was so much things that was happening around me. BamBam was goofing around like normal and everyone was laughing at him except me.
"Are you okay? You seem a bit down." asked Yugyeom.
"Yeah I'm fine." I answered with a fake smile on my face. "I just was thinking about school." I lied.
"We do have a lot of work to do." He agreed.
We just sat there talking about school stuff while the others where playing games. Soon I saw Mark walk into the room looking upset.
"You okay?" Junior asked concerned.
Mark didn't answer.
"He's fine." answered Jackson as he walked into the room.
I watched Mark as he sat in a empty seat that was on the other side of the room. He pulled out his phone and stood up once again.
He walked to the door saying, "I'll be back," and left.
What happened to him? I want to help because he always keeps helping me.
"Where's the bathroom?" I asked.
I didn't really want to use the bathroom I just wanted a excuse to go and see if Mark was okay.
"When you exit the door turn right and it's all the way down the hall." JB said.
"Thanks." I said as I stood to leave the room.
I exited the room and was about the head down the stairs to find Mark but I heard him on the phone. I'm starting to get a bad habit of eavesdropping. Even though I know that I shouldn't be doing it I do it anyway. I hid behind a wall that was right by the stairs and I started to eavesdropping on his conversation on the phone.
"Hello? Who is this?" he asked.
"Why did you come back?" he asked full of annoyance.
"First don't call me babe and second of all of course I don't want you here. That's why I left your ass. Stop trying to run back to me like I will always be there for you. I don't care if you are rich or if you are broke. Your not going to be in my life ever." he said before hanging up the phone.
I peeked out from the corner and saw him throw his phone. Then he walk to the kitchen to get water. Then after he walked outside to sit on the outside porch. I walked hesitantly down the stairs wondering if going outside to talk to him was a good idea right now. My mind was telling me to turn around but my heart was telling me to run to him and hug him. My mind was thinking that he just needs some space but my heart felt like he needed comfort. I was to worried on what to do I didn't realize that I was already at the door that lead to the porch. I had no other choice but to open the door and to talk to him. So that's what I did. I quietly opened and closed the door. He looked at me as I walked to him. I grabbed at seat to the left of him.
"You okay?" I asked looking straight into his eyes which was filled with anger, frustration, and confusion.
He looked away and said a little to harsh, "You don't have to comfort me. I'm fine."
"But you are always there for me so I want to be there for you also. It seems a little unfair to me that I only receive and not give. It is also unfair that you only give and not receive. So here I am doing my part."
He looked back to me than away again.
"I seems fair to me. So you can go." he said quite coldly.
"You can talk to me Mark. I will understand."
He stood up and faced me with a look I couldn't quite subscribe. But I can say that his eyes were watery.
"You won't understand Hazel! Can you please just leave." He shouted at me.
I was shocked. I didn't see this coming. But I didn't fight back I just slowly stood up and walked back into the house. I started to walk upstairs but I stopped half way and sat on a step. I could still see him through the window. His palms of his hands was placed on his face. I felt this feeling deep inside that told me that I made his situation more worse when I was suppose to make him feel better. And that's when I realized that I missed the signal he was giving me the whole entire time. He just wanted to be alone. Now I feel really bad.
"You dumbass!" I cursed to myself.
Now he probably thinks that I wanted him to annoy him. Ugh Hazel why so you have to be so stupid! I stood up and walked back to the room.
"What took you so long?" asked Ava.
"I was texting Mr. Daniel about my project. I was a bit confused about it." I lied. Again.
"Where is Mark?" asked BamBam.
Everyone just shrugged their shoulders.
"I last saw him walk outside." Junior said.
"I should go and talk to him." Jackson said standing up.
When he exited the room everyone was quiet.
"I wonder what's wrong with him today? He seems a bit off." Youngjae said.
I just sat there having nothing to say. I still felt bad for making Mark feel more frustrated. I should have had listened to my head.
"Are you okay Hazel?" asked Junior.
"Yeah just thinking bout school." I lied once again. "I'm going to go for a walk."
"I'll go with you." Ava said.
Both of us stood and walked to the door. We exited and I just walked to the front door. I acted like I didn't see him but Ava sure saw him.
"Hey look there's Mark." Ava said louldly.
Mark looked and Ava was going to run outside but I grabbed Ava's hand.
"We should give him some space." I whispered.
"But I want to see if he's okay." Ava whined.
"Let's just go for that walk." I said dragging her to the front door.
We went outside and put our shoes on. Then we started our walk. The first few minutes were quite and calm but my mind felt the exact opposite of calm. It's was filled with so much things.
"You sure your okay?" Ava asked looking at me.
"Maybe." I replied. "No." I added putting my head down.
"Let's sit." Ava said signaling to the bench.
We sat on the bench and Ava looked at me and waited patiently for me to talk.
"I'm waiting." She said.
There was a pause in our conversation but after a while I spoke.
"Why do you think dad did this to us? When did he think that this was a good thing."
"I hoped that you wouldn't bring it up." I heard Ava whisper.
"It's okay. I was going to happen eventually. Right?" I said trying to cheer the both of us.
I know that Ava felt more sad about this because she knew that my mom wanted to adopt her right when she meet Ava. My dad needed some convincing. Ava was closer to my mom also so that made the situation worse.
"I know that this was eventually going to happen but I wished it was later. Mom was only gone for a year and I still miss her badly. Now that I know that she's dead it makes me miss her more." Ava said before sobbing.
I scooted over on the bench to hug her.
"It's okay." I repeat.
I sat there hugging Ava while she cried into this shoulder for a while.
"Okay I'm composed let's talk about you and Mark now." Ava said.
"What do you mean 'let's talk about you and Mark.' There is nothing between us." I defended.
"Why didn't you want me to see if he was okay?"
"Okay fine. When I went out to use the bathroom I didn't actually didn't use the bathroom. It was just an excuse for me to see if Mark was okay." I admitted. "When I went to try and comfort I wasn't paying attention so I made him more upset. I only realized after that he just wanted to be left alone."
I sighed.
"Hey this is just something small I'm sure you guys are going to get over this fast." Ava said.
"Yeah. I hope."
"Let's just get back and have fun. That's why we came here in the first place anyways." Ava said jumping up.
"But it won't be fun if Mark isn't okay." I mumbled.
"Someone is sure falling in love." Ava said walking away.
"I'm not!"
"Umm yeah you are. You just mumbled that it won't be fun because Mark won't be okay. You are obviously worried about him." Ava said walking a little faster.
"I said I don't like him!" I yelled before running after her.
She began to run and I continued to chase after her.
"You will never catch me Mark lover!" She yelled before turning around to stick her tongue at me.
She turned back around laughing and began to run faster. She got to the front door faster than me and rushed to take off her shoes. After she took off her shoes she threw it to the side and scrambled to enter. I was just about to run inside but she slammed the door right in front of my face and I heard a click which was probably the door being locked.
"You're going to get it this time Ava!" I yelled on the other side of the door.
I heard laughing on the inside.
I began to knock on the door and yell, "Open the door!"
About 10 minutes after I gave up and sat on the front steps.
"Come on man open the door please." I said kindly.
I heard the door open and immediately stood up.
"Stupid I unlocked the door 5 minutes ago." Ava said laughing.
She was right I was stupid.
I just entered giving Ava a nudge while I walked in.
"What was that for?" Ava asked annoyed.  "Well someone is salty." She started to laugh again. "Come on stupid they have been waiting for your salty butt for 10 minutes now." She said before running up the stairs.
I was to tired to run so I just rolled my eyes and walked up the stairs. I entered the room that Ava entered and everyone turned to look at me.
"There she is." Jackson said running to me. "I though you were never coming back." He said giving a sad puppy face.
"Stupid I was only gone for like 20 minutes." I said laughing.
Then I pushed Jackson off of me.
"Look who's being the baby now. " I said while walking to grab a seat.
"That was quite rude. You should apologize." he whined.
"I'm sorry baby." I said sarcastically.
"Whatever." Jackson said before standing up and going back to his seat.
"That's the Jackson I like." I said laughing.
"Hazel, we have a question to ask you." BamBam said.
"Yeah I'm listening."
Yugyeom cleared this throat and asked, "Do you umm.. like Mark?"
I almost was about to go up to him to punch him in the face but I didn't.
I held my composure and simply said, "I don't have any feelings for Mark. We're just friends. Why are you guys asking anyways?"
"We were just wondering." JB said before grabbing his cup of water.
"What are we going to do? I wanna do something fun." Ava said changing the subject.
"Well. What ever you want to do." said Youngjae.
"Let's play a game." I said.
"Hey hey hey. He asked me honey bobo." Ava said snapping her fingers.
"Why you giving me sas little girl." I said back giving her a playful push.
I knew she just wanted Youngjae's attention.
"So what are we going to play?" Youngjae asked.
"I want to play twister!" Ava said excitingly.
"We don't have twister." said Mark as he entered.
"Awww man. I wanted to play that." Ava said disappointed.
"Well you were the only one that wanted to play that." I said.
"No Youngjae wanted to play it. Right Youngjae?"
Everyone's attention turned to Youngjae. I know that he didn't want to play it but let's just see what happens.
"I actually did want to play twister." He said with a fake smile.
I know that he lied. It was obvious but I guess Ava didn't catch it.
"See someone else wanted to play." Ava said.
"Yeah let's say that." I said looking at Youngjae.
He turned to look out the window.
"So what are we going to do?" I asked Ava.
"How bout"
"How bout we get something to eat." Jackson said cutting Ava off.
"I agree with Jackson." Junior said.
Everyone nodded their head.
"Okay Mark is treating and we are going to eat something expensive." Jackson said standing up to leave.
"I'll pay." I said before Jackson could leave the room.
"Okay" he simply said.
"You can't let her pay." Yugyeom said.
"Then you can pay." He said and left the room.
"Wonder what his problem is." Yugyeom said annoyed.
"I think he's just having a bad day." Ava said.
"It seems like everyone is in a bad mood. Hopefully getting something to eat will make everyone happier." said BamBam jumping up and running after Jackson. "I want a ride with you Jackson!" we heard him yell.
Everyone one started to stand and walk out the door.
"You can ride with me if you want." Yugyeom said as he put his arm around my shoulders.
"Okay." I said looking as happily as possible.
I didn't want to ride with Yugyeom. I wanted to ride with Mark but I felt like it wasn't a good time right now in our situation. So I just forced myself to ride with Yugyeom. He was nice anways.
"How bout me?" Ava pouted.
"Go ride with Youngjae." I said then walked away.
She's probably going to kill me after this.
I hopped into the car with Yugyeom. We closed the door and he started the car. We followed Jackson's car and off we went to eat. The ride was a bit uncomfortable from the awkward silence. I shifted in my seat.
"So how was your day?" he asked breaking the quietness.
"My day had it's ups and downs." I said looking straight at the road.
"Do you want to talk to me about those downs you had?"
"I feel more comfortable if we didn't talk about them."
I didn't want to talk about my situations with Yugyeom because honestly I only feel comfortable talking to Mark about my problems. He is probably the only one who will understand anyways. The ride got quiet again which made it awkward again.
"Anyways we should be close to the restaurant." he said again breaking the silence.
"Where are we going anyways? I don't want it to be super expensive." I said worried.
I don't want Yugyeom to pay for such a expensive meal. Especially with 9 people.
"Don't worry." he said. "We're here anyways."
The car pulled up into a parking stall and we got out. We saw the others entering the restaurant. I started to walk faster so that Junior didn't have to hold the door open long.
"Why are you walking faster?" Yugyeom asked.
"I don't want Junior to hold the door long so come on Yugyeom." I said.
He just started to walk slower. I ran behind of him and started to push him.
"Hurry!" I said continuing to push him with all my might.
"He can wait."
He started to put all his weight on to me.
"That was quite rude." I said then moved to the side of him so that I wasn't supporting him anymore.
He almost fell but he gained his balance.
"Now that was rude." he said
I was laughing. He started to run after me and I raced to the restaurant. Junior wasn't holding the door anymore because we took too long. I quickly opened the door and ran in. I walked calmly to where the others where sitting.
"What took you guys to long." Ava asked.
"Yugyeom." I said still trying to catch my breath.
"Looks like you guys had some fun out there." Junior said passing me a menu.
"Thanks and no Yugyeom was just being slow. I was just trying to get him to hurry up."
Yugyeom came in and took the empty seat by me. I handed him my menu since I already decided. The waitress came and we gave her our orders.
"What have you guys been up to lately?" I asked before taking a sip of water.
"Actually me and Yugyeom have been looking for a dance studio to go to." BamBam said.
"The one I go to is pretty good. I can send you guys the schedule for the classes." I said.
"Yeah that would be great."
"Thanks." Yugyeom said.
"No problem." I said taking another sip of water.
We were having small conversations here and there while we waited for the food to come out.
"Hey can I talk to you outside for a bit?" Yugyeom asked out of the blue.
"But our food is probably going to come soon." I whined.
"I'll be fast I promise." he said before grabbing my wrist and dragging me outside.
We reached the side of the restaurant and he finally stopped dragging me.
"What did you want to talk about." I said.
"I actually didn't want to talk." He said walking closer.
"What do you mean?" I asked backing up afraid on what might happen.
Maybe he'll try to kill me or maybe kidnap me.
He grabbed my wrist again and pulled me into a kiss. My eyes went big and I pushed him hard so that he would get off of me.
"I'm sorry but I don't feel that way about you." I said when I broke the kiss. "You should have asked about my feelings instead of just kissing me." I added before I ran into the restaurant.
I saw Mark walked to his car as I ran. I hope he didn't see what happened but he probably saw the kiss. He won't get the wrong idea right? Once I got inside I asked a waitress where the bathroom is. She told me directions and I followed them. I pushed the bathroom door and headed to a out of order stall. I lowered the toilet seat cover and sat down. Why did he kiss me?! Does he really like me?! I have so much questions. And I really hope Mark didn't get the wrong idea. Wait we aren't even dating so why should I care about what Mark thinks. It's not like he likes me. But is it that I like him?

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