Snape's fantasy

Getting him back

It's been a week since I last saw Severus. I've been sleeping in his house every night just waiting for him to come home. I know this is a stupid move cuz I would probably get caught and everyone has been asking where I have been. I feel like he ran away, cuz I told him I love him. It's a real shit feeling this morning, it's my birthday. I don't expect Severus to say it back but at least turn up and have responsibility. He can't even face me anymore, and he hasn't even come to teach class. We have a stupid relief teacher and she hates DDA class, so she just tells us to read the books. Getting out of bed I sniffed Severus's pillow and walked to the bathroom to take a shower. The shower is massive that you can fit two people at the same time lying down on the floor. It's mixed with white grey and back which gives it a warm feeling. It has 8 jets that spray water out but I only use 4 of them. The water sprays out on either sides and there is even a fireplace in the back. Ah imagine the water bill in muggle world. I always feel weird using the shower, like someone is watching me. There is no privacy with this shower so if Severus comes in then he will see everything.

''Hey Camilla, happy birthday'' I heard people shouting down the hall as I walked passed. ''Thanks''. Late as usual, I sat in my normal seat and finally payed attention to the professor talking. ''Hey cam, happy birthday'' Tayla said as she slipped something on my lap under the table. ''What is this?''. ''Don't open it yet, later when we go to Hogsmeade''. ''I don't think I want to go anymore'' I said with a disappointing look. ''What are you talking about, whats wrong?''. ''Nothing I just don't feel well'' I said trying to make up an excuse. But to be fair I actually don't feel well, I feel likeIi'm going to be sick. ''It's your birthday, you cant be sick''. ''I don't think my birthday cares if I'm sick or not. It's just a day to be honest''. ''Well I don't care, I have plans made and I do not intend on cancelling it. So you will be coming and you will not sit here with that drowsy look''. Gee, I have never heard Tayla with this attitude before. She must have put a lot of effort into this. ''Allright'' I said trying to sound positive which completely failed.

Lunch time finally came and Tayla said now is the best time to open that present. I completely forgot about it until she asked if I was anxious to open it. Looks like everyone came to see what it was. I don't even know half these people, and they are all here for me? Grabbing the packet I tore open the sides. It's a box. I can see Tayla's excitement and everyone else staring at me waiting to open. Opening the top of the box, it flung out of my hands and landed on the floor. My ears deafening by the sound of popping one by one. It's fireworks. All different colours shooting out and landing all over the place in the sky. Suddenly a massive explosion, in the colours of blue green and red it said ''Happy Birthday Camilla'' in the air. So this is why everyone is standing around here, I didn't think I was that popular anyway. ''Thank you Tayla, it's beautiful'' I said kindly while giving her a hug. ''Now tonight we are off to Hogsmeade'' she demanded. Maybe it wont be so bad. It's just this thing with Severus is killing me. I still have my necklace on that Severus gave me, which means he has no excuse for not telling me where he is. I've debated many times if I should just take it off and move on but my heart is saying no. I sound like one of those girls that whine about everything. Walking back to my dorm which I haven't been there for days, I threw my books down on my side desk and lay down on my bed. It's not as comfy as Severus's bed. I don't have anymore lessons today so I have two hours to spare. Taking out my phone my mother gave me and playing some music while I doze off to sleep.

''Wake up, lets go'' I heard a voice screaming at me. Opening my eyes Tayla was standing in fornt of me with rage. Quickly getting up and changing into my normal clothes, I felt worse. I shouldn't have taken a nap. We got to Hogsmeade and it was full. ''I have a table for us'' Tayla said. ''Us, who else is coming?'' I demanded. ''Calm down, you'll see'' she said with a little too smilingly. Walking in and seeing everyone already sitting at the table. There was Derek, Rose, Annie, Jason, Rebecca and Sam. To be honest I don't really know these people and they are mainly Taylas friends. Saying hi to everyone and then telling me happy birthday is getting old now. It just reminds me of Severus and what I don't have. Jason sat next to me and gave me a hug. ''I'll take a butterbeer'' I said rather too loud. ''So Camilla, how are you?'' Jason asked. ''Yeah I'm good, how about you?''. ''I'm good too. Look I don't want to sound pushy but do you have a boyfriend?'' he mumbled. ''Uh that's sweet, I am actually seeing someone'' I said trying to sound convincing. My butterbeer arrived and I almost chugged down the whole thing. I think ill take another one. The night went on and I think I've had about 4 beers already. Jason has been on top of me all night but I don't think I mind it. Standing at the bar paying for my fifth drink Jason came and put his hands around my waist. ''Well hello'' I said seductively. ''Are you sure you have a boyfriend, cuz he doesn't have to know and I don't see him here'' he hinted. ''Stop Camilla'' I heard a voice in my head. Severus, I know he could still hear me. And only now he is talking to me, what a coward. Grabbing my beer I chugged it all down. ''Oh wow, I bet you can't do three in a row like that'' Jason added. ''Oh really, you wanna bet''. ''Alright if you do you I will do all your homework for a week'' he hissed. ''And if I don't'' I added. ''Then you have to do something for me''. ''Like what'' I asked. ''Like kiss me''. Pausing for a minute I thought kiss him. Wow he must be really desperate. Severus is talking to me but only when I do something bad he doesn't like. So maybe he won't like this and he will say something, plus I can see if he still cares. ''Alright your on''. The three beers in front of me I stood there staring at them waiting for Severus to say something. Grabbing one glass and chugging it all down, I slammed it on the table and screamed one. ''Camilla, stop drinking'' I heard in my head. Grabbing the second glass and chugging it down too. ''Oh just one more to go'' I heard Jason. ''Camilla, stop now. You are going to get hurt'' Severus said. ''Like you hurt me'' I relied back to him. The last glass, it looks bigger. Slowly chugging down the beer, I felt sick. ''Camilla, stop or ill come there and make you stop'' Severus hissed. Bending down I could feel the drinks coming up and I was about to throw up. ''Ok that was too easy, how about we put all tree in one glass'' Jason said. ''Alright fine, but I still won the last bet. So I guess I have free homework from you'' I said and pointed at him then winked. One more drink left, it's massive. Taking the glass, I could barley hold it up with one hand. Swallowing the drink down and controlling my breathing, this was too easy for me. With the glass finished, I was drunk as ever. ''Jason come here'' I shouted. Without hesitating I smashed my lips against his. Our mouths gliding together and our tongues dancing. I heard Severus grunt in his pissed off voice and I moved deeper into the kiss. Jason placed his hands on my butt and grabbed tightly. The kiss was intense, not like Severus's. It was different, like I was kissing a boy.

The door flung open and a back shadow entered the room. The kiss was broken and I felt a scare in my body. The shadow stormed towards me and stood at our table. ''Students, a week night drinking. And should you be drinking at all. 10 points off everyone of you and your houses. Back to Hogwarts immediately'' Severus demanded. I felt my legs get weaker and I started to get shaky. ''Camilla that includes you'' he hissed. As I turned I felt a wave of nauseous and threw up on the floor. Severus grabbed my arm and with a click we were in his bathroom. Not giving it a second thought, I ran to the toilet and continued to throw up. Severus came in the room and tried to help, but I pushed him away. ''I don't want you seeing me like this'' I snapped. ''I don't care, your still beautiful'' he stated. ''Just don't'' I shouted and slammed the door in his face.