Snape's fantasy

First Fight

It's been a month that I have practically been living in Severus's mini house. We have been doing everything together and I finally slept in his bed last night. It's not that I don't want to; its just if I sleep in the same bed as him then I can't control myself. So last night was amazing, we just cuddled and fell asleep. ''Good morning'' a croaky voice broke the silence. ''Morning'' I replied. ''Did you sleep well''. ''Sort of, I couldn't sleep. How about you?''. ''Definitely, as it's so much better than sleeping on the couch''. Climbing out of bed and getting ready for another day of school. I could feel Severus staring at me. ''Breakfast'' Severus asked. ''Yes that would be amazing'' I replied. Walking to the bathroom and decided to take a shower.

Walking into the kitchen and seeing Severus making us breakfast. I went and sat at the table quietly waiting for him to notice I was there. After 2 minutes turning around his eyes widen and stared at me. ''That smells good'' I said as he placed the plat in front of me. ''I can see why you never eat in the hall''. ''So camilla, your birthday is in 2 days and you haven't said anything".  ''What am I suppose to say'' I said seductively.  ''You haven't said what you wanted for a present''. ''I don't want anything, all I want is a night in with you and me''. ''What about your friends, Tayla wouldn't be happy'' Severus added. ''Yeah course, but we will do something during the day. And it will be girly stuff''. ''A night in?''. ''Yes, I want to be with my man'' I said getting up and placing the plate in the sink. Walking back to Severus and sitting on his lap. Leaning forward and placing a soft kisses on his neck. ''I'm going to be late''. ''Mm don't want my woman to be late'' he said seductively. Kissing his soft lips ''I love you''. Severus pulling away ''what?''. ''I love you'' I said confused. He grabbed my waist and pushed me up off him and walked to the sink. ''Class started about 5 minuted ago'' he snapped. Did I do something wrong, he just pushed me away. Grabbing my bag and walking out, the door slammed behind me. I thought we were at that stage, doesn't he love me. Shit, I've stuffed everything up now. I should have just kept my mouth shut. I felt my eyes watering and my chest tightening. I've never felt this pain before, my insides are clenching together. Running to the nearest bathroom and slamming in the cubicle.

It was second period and I was still in the bathroom. ''Camilla, are you ok?'' I heard Tayla's voice which just made me start to cry again. ''Let me in''. I opened the door and she walked in and hugged me tight. ''I cant stop crying'' I said sobbing out load. ''Whats wrong'' she asked. ''It just, it's the guy. It's not really a fight. It's just really confusing'' I tried to explain. ''Well I can't help or understand if you don't tell me the actual problem''. ''Don't judge me. I told him I love him and he pushed me away. I'm not upset that he didn't say it back, its just that I have completely embarrassed myself'' I cried. ''Well then he is not worthy of you. Look the best way is to forget what happened and try move past it''. Grabbing toilet paper and rubbing my smudgy eyes. ''Come we don't want to be late for class'' Tayla begged. Walking out the bathroom and rushing to my next class which was potions. ''So your birthday is coming up, what do you wanna do?'' Tayla asked. ''Wanna go to HOGSMEADE'' I suggested. ''Aha yeah sure but something special as well''. ''I dont know''. ''Camilla, detention'' the stupid professor said. ''But I haven't done anything'' I hissed. ''exactly''.

The day went pretty quick as I didn't want to go and face Severus. Walking back very slowly to his room, just walk in and nothing happened this morning. Just forget about it, and act normal. But not too normal or that's weird, ughhh why does this have to be so hard. Standing in front of his door I took in a deep breath and out. Opening the door and did my usual thing. Placing my bag down in the study and walking to the bedroom to get changed in my normal clothes. Walking around the house, Severus isn't here. Crashing myself on the couch and pulled out my book for homework. I have to go to detention with professor Slughorn in an hour. Severus is probably in his office doing paper work and will come later. Getting up to the kitchen I pulled out my phone and put music on. I like anything really. Dancing to the music I made myself something to eat. I'm still getting used to everything and I spend more time trying to find the utensils than actually making food. This meant it was 10 minutes till detention. Scoffing down the food, I put the music off and went to his office. ''Camilla, you are going to polish my trophies until I'm satisfied''. ''Yes sir''. This is going to be the longest detention I have ever had. It was silent in the class, like you could drop a pin and hear it. ''How was your day'' I asked trying to break the silence. ''My day?''. ''Yeah, was it good or bad. What did you have for breakfast and so on'' I babbled. ''Uh my day was fine and I had pumpkin juice and toast'' he replied. ''That's good, I had a really fast day and I had eggs and toast and coffee for breakfast'' I added. ''Coffee? How did you get coffee?''. Shit I forgot they don't give coffee to the students and I had at Severus's. ''Uh no sorry I meant pumpkin juice. Although I'm used to having coffee at home''.

Severus is still not here. Walking around the house to the kitchen, office, bedroom and even bathroom. It's 12o'clock and he isn't back yet. Or maybe he ran away and doesn't want a relationship anymore. I felt my stomach turning, and I started crying again. Changing into my undies and bra, I climbed into Severus's bed and hugged his pillow tight. Sobbing myself to sleep.