* Not in this Life *

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I don't know
What kills me the most?
Having a conversation
Or not having a conversation at all
I knew this wasn't good for me
But it’s worse without you
Even when I try not to want you
I end up needing you
You’re like that devil in angel’s disguise
And I’m like addicted to that devil
Maybe that’s why you're my favourite joy
Yet my endless pain
And even after all this shits I tried,
I really tried to hate you
But the only thing I hated
Is how much I loved you
You know sometimes it freaks me out
I wish I could hurt you
The way you hurt me,
Over and over again
But I know
That even if I had a chance
I wouldn't do it
‘Cause loving can hurt sometimes
But it's the only thing that I know...


-Scribbled Mind❤

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