Forgiven

When he's drunk

Octavia
Bellamy hasn't stopped drinking since Clarke left, Octavia has been doing all she can to get him away from Monty's moonshine but so far she has been unsuccessful.
She waltzed her way into the mess hall and frowned when she saw Bellamy at the bar, drink in hand. She clenched her jaw and stomped over. Slapped the glass out of his hand, spilling it on the floor.
"What the he-" Bellamy turned to her, with bloodshot, and dark sunken eyes. His hair was greasy and his clothes were stained, his breath smelled of scotch and yesterdays breakfast. Octavia slammed her fist on the table and held back a scoff.
"Bellamy get up." She barked the order at him and crossed her arms. Bellamy just flung his head back in surprise and flipped her off. He was drunk. "Bellamy, get the hell up!" Now she was yelling. Bellamy stood up relentlessly and cocked his head.
"What?!" Seeing her brother like this recked Octavia. He had always been the one to protect her, she isn't use to Bellamy being so utterly helpless.
"Bell, go to the med bay, get a shower, get sober and put your damn life back together." She had tears in her eyes.
The past month had been harder for Octavia, Bellamy was so far gone Octavia didn't think he could feel anything at all. "You can't feel sorry for yourself forever, Bell." Octavia hushed the tone of her voice almost to a whisper. What little people were in the mess hall, were now looking away, as if embarrassed.
Bellamy looked hurt. He put his head in his hands and seemed to snap out of his drunk ass for three seconds. "She left." Octavia's heart felt for him, it really did. Seeing how messed up her brother was, she didn't think she would ever forgive Clarke for leaving them-him.
"I know, big brother" she put a hand on his shoulder and slowly pulled him into a hug.
"She left me" Bellamy stifled a sob and hugged his little sister back, hard.
"Bell, let's get you cleaned up," she wrapped her arm around him and led him to the showers.
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Raven
Raven was fixing the medicine cabinet when Octavia and Bellamy trudged in, Bellamy practically asleep in his sisters' grasp. She ran over, afraid that the two were hurt.
"What happened?" She helped Octavia lower him into a bed
"Scotch," Octavia walked briskly over to the herb drawers and pulled out a greenish red looking plant. Raven watched in curiosity as she mixed it in water. She walked back over to her and set the brown liquid on the table next to Bellamy's bed.
"What is that?" Raven wet a cloth and placed it on Bellamy's forehead. Octavia didn't look up from Bellamy,
"It's a medicine, Lincoln told me it helps when it comes to addiction and hangovers" she stood up and left, not even giving Raven the chance to speak
"I guess I'm babysitting," Raven took the drink and made a groggy Bellamy drink it
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Bellamy
When Bellamy woke up he was surprised to feel no head pain or 'hangover'. He swung his feet out of his cot and lifted his head. The med bay was empty, every cot that lined the walls had neatly made 'blankets' although to call them blankets would be a lie, more like rags. Abby was nowhere to be seen, and neither is Clarke.
He scoffed and stood up.
"Well, good morning sunshine" Raven strolled into the med bay and stopped in front of Bellamy. He scratched his neck and brushed his hair back. Raven's mouth was brought into half smile and her arms were crossed.
"How long have I been out?" Bellamy rubbed his eyes. Raven shrugged,
"A day or two," Bellamy rubbed his forehead. 97 days, she has been gone for 97 days
Bellamy shook his head and walked out, thanking Raven.
"Hey! Bellamy!" Raven called for Bellamy to come back into the med bay. He ignored her.
With only one working leg, Raven quickly fell behind him. "Bellamy!" She yelled after him, quickening her pace "you bastard!"
Bellamy stopped and turned around, Raven almost running right into him.
"What," for being asleep for a day and a half, Bellamy felt like he hadn't gotten any sleep in months, his eyes felt heavy and his head felt as if his brain were hammering against his skull.
Raven stopped before getting to run into him,
She crossed her arms and raised her eyebrows, "don't 'what' me Bellamy Blake," Bellamy shifted on his two feet, "for your information, Bellamy, your sister left this for you last night." Raven shoved a folded slip of paper into Bellamy's hands and stormed off, obviously ticked by Bellamy's attitude.
Bellamy studied the paper and unfolded it:

Bell,
     I know you are going to wake up and head to the bar. Don't. You need to stop blaming yourself for Clarke leaving.
Lexa asked to meet with us tomorrow at sundown and discuss some recent events, come when you can.
-O

He crumbled up the paper and threw it onto the ground, looking into the mess hall he was about to walk into. He shook his head and looked up. It was midday, About 11:30. He thought if he left now, he could get to Polis on time. He shook his head and turned around, and got onto the nearest horse.
He wasn't going to punish himself anymore.
This was Clarke's fault.
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Octavia
She couldn't help but wonder where Bellamy was and what he was doing.
More like who he was doing.
She shuddered at the thought and stepped into the elevator with Abby and Kane standing on either side of her. Abby hasn't been doing all that great. She wasn't drinking as much as Bellamy, but she was still drunk a little less than half of the time. Octavia couldn't blame her, Clarke was her daughter, but Bell... what reason could he have to destroy himself like this?
Octavia never had time to finish her thought, the door to the elevator opened up into the Heda's hall. At the end of the room sat an armored Lexa. She sat up straighter when she saw the three of them walking in her direction. Only her and the flame keeper stood in the room.
"Skaikru," she bowed her head and furrowed her brow. "Could Bellamy not make our meeting?" She looked down at Octavia which made her flinch. Octavia noticed the sun setting though the window behind her throne.
Not one of the three of them could manage to say anything, but just as Lexa was going to ask again, the elevator door opened. Octavia turned around and saw a clean, out of breath Bellamy walking straight towards the four of them.
"Sorry I am late," he breathed. Lexa stepped down and started walking toward a large round table, five chairs surrounding it.
The four Arkadians sat down at the table with her. Kane folded his hands on top of the table while Bellamy crossed his arms and Abby set hers in her lap. Octavia's hands played with her sword's handle. All five of them sat there for a solid minute before anyone mustered a single word.
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Bellamy
"I have realized that Clarke has been missing for a period of 98 days." Lexa couldn't have started with a more ironic statement. Bellamy flinched and uncrossed his arms,
"I'm sorry, but what does that have anything to do with this meeting?" Abby shot a disapproving glance in Bellamy's direction, Kane sat back in his chair and exhaled in annoyance. Lexa just rolled her eyes,
"If you would be patient for a second or two, you would understand" Lexa almost raised her voice, Bellamy just sat still for a few moments.
"Thank you," Lexa sat up straighter, "three of my men have been missing as well" Bellamy shot up in his seat, "they disappeared the day after Clarke left" Abby looked as if she'd gotten punched in the face, She gripped Kane's hand tightly and looked at Bellamy, a worried frown on her face. Bellamy clenched his jaw and tapped his foot on the floor,
"And you think they could have something to do with why Clarke hasn't come back?" Lexa nodded and Octavia cursed in grounder tongue and cocked her head in Lexa's direction.
"What clan?" Lexa flinched at Octavia's question.
"Azgeda."