Don't you (forget about me) [Rafinha // Pjaca]

Forever ~ Chapter 15

I am nervous. I am freaking nervous. Next to this: I'm angry. FUCKING ANGRY.
I entered the huge building that I can still call my working place. Who knows for how long...
I waited until Rafinha headed to training so that I could go and speak to my boss. I didn't want to tell him yet. I don't want to him to think about this only. He has to concentrate on training. And maybe, if I talk to the boss calmly we can work things out and I can stay here...
Well, from how my heart is racing I don't think that a calm conversation is possible.
"Hey miss, I don't think that you can just go there" A shy small guy who must be an intern tried to stop me from going into my bosses office.
-"The boss is willing to buy an apartment for me in Turin, I am fucking sure that I can talk to him" I screamed at him and pushed him out of the way.
I entered the office and as my boss saw me standing there he closed his laptop slowly. He got to know me within the last weeks, the knows that he is about to hear a speech right now.

"Turin? Are you serious? Making me move away from my friends and my family? You don't want me to be your journalist when I'm with Rafinha? Well then I can come back to Barcelona after one day in Turin because I don't think that he'll accept me going to another country! Why don't you just tell me to break up with him, it's going to be like that this way or another." I screamed at him even louder while he didn't even look at me
"I have no choice Vittoria"was the only thing that came out of his mouth. I am even angrier now.
-"You're the boss! You have a choice!" I continued screaming,  "I lived away from Rafinha for 6 years, and now you want to take him from me again?"
As I said that a lump in my throat started building up, my heart started racing and tears began to roll down my cheeks. My boss realized it immediately and stood up to hug me. I didn't hug him back but I didn't push him away either. I had no power to do so.
"Vittoria...You're such a good person... Rafinha can be happy to be loved by a person like you"
Hearing him saying that made me cry even more. I can be happy to be loved by a person like Rafinha. I still don't know how I deserve him.
"We'll find a way okay? And if I had to sign a contract that says that we'll pay a flight to Barcelona and back every week so that you can see him every week, then I'll do that."
I finally hugged him back. Bosses are no assholes. They are humen. And they know how we feel. I tried not to cry on his jacket too much but I couldn't hold it back. I don't want to lose him again.

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I opened the door to Rafinhas house. I didn't even care about the mascara all over my face. I'll have to tell him. There's no reason hiding it. Rafinha came closer and as he saw that I cried he pulled me into a hug immediately without asking what happend.
"Baby! What happened? Did they fire you? Vita I swear I'll kill all of them" Rafinha whispered after some time. I had a lot to explain...

"I talked to my boss...and he said that there's no other way... We worked on the contract already and the company would pay a flight for me every Monday to Barcelona and every Thursday back to Turin so that we can see each other during the week... I don't know what to do Rafinha.." I ended the explanation and looked up to face him. He was disappointed.
-"You worked on the contract already without telling me a thing? Vittoria this is also about me!"
I looked at him confused. I was about to tell him how arrogant he is acting and how this is mostly about me... but I didn't say anything. I knew that in a few seconds he'll realize that what he just said was mean.
-"I'm sorry baby...I...I just wish you told me about it earlier"
"I just found out today... Listen.. I love you and I don't want to be away from you, not even for a second ... But this is my dream and I worked sooo long for being where I am right now..."
-"Do it" Rafinha suddenly interrupted me.
"What?"
-"Do it...It's exactly what I did back then. I loved you with all my heart but it was my dream to become a professional footballer...Just please...Don't make the mistake I did...Don't forget to come back"

I stood up and cuddled myself into Rafinhas arms. "I won't..I'll be here from Monday to Thursday...I promise

We just stood there without saying a word. I didn't want to let go. I wanted to smell his cologne every second and I wanted to be near his warm body for the rest of my life. Without an exception.

"Let's go.."

-"where to?"

"To work, we'll work on the contract. I want it to be just as you want it to be and since I know you for my whole life I know that you're always too shy to say what you actually want"

Rafinha made me laugh.

"I Love you" I laughed before kissing him slowly. "I'll be 1-2 hours away from you with the plane but I swear that I'll have you on my mind every second and that you're the only one...Forever...Okay?"

"forever?"

-"yes.. Forever."