There were things I shouldn't have said
Things I shouldn't have done
I made some mistakes
A lot more than some
I regret them all, the memories hurt
Why did I do it?
I'm not human, but worse.
Humans learn, move forward
But I'm stuck in a rut,
Stuck on that word.
Failure.
More than just that one,
Regret, unlovable, worthless.
Words used to describe.
They're used to describe me.
People hate, they really do.
I couldn't care less, until I met you.
You changed my world
Made me care
I had fun with you
Then you weren't there
You abandoned me,
I knew it was coming.
I didn't think it would come that fast,
Or that your emotions would be steady.
Why did I care?
Why couldn't you leave me be?
Now I've made more mistakes
Not for you, but for me.
If you returned, you wouldn't recognise
Recognise the shell I've become
Emptied of insides.
Now my feelings are hard to explain
I listen to their words
They say it everyday
Weak, pathetic, regret
If they don't say it
They think it
I feel their glances,
Hear their whispers.
I know their voices
Like my scars and blisters.
Everyday I hear
Everyday I listen
Everyday I believe
Everyday I miss you more
Everyday since you slammed the door
Everyday I've sat in silence
Everyday I've awaited your return
Everyday I've pondered my mistakes
Everyday I've regretted my existence
Everyday I've lived in my rut
Everyday I ponder my only way out
Everyday I ponder the escape
Everyday I ponder how to do it
Everyday I ponder who will miss me
Everyday I ponder freedom
Everyday I ponder death.
Today I'm tired of waiting
Today I'm ready to go
Today I've given up on you
Today I've given up on love
Today I've given up on life
Today I leave this dreary world
Today I explore the beyond
Today I will know freedom
Today is the day I break free.
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Random Me
De TodoThis was my song book, but I have now made it just random stuff. Short stories, poems, songs, the likes.
