Behind Closed Doors: The Candice Sanders Story, uncensored

Chapter #4: What do I want for myself?

I want to be happy, I want to be at peace. I want to go back to loving myself before I love anyone else. I want to stop feeling like I owe people something. I want to be successful and tell people my story, whether it be about my ADHD, or my family life. There's a lot of secrets in my life and I guess everyone feels as though I'm not ready to hear it. I've begun losing respect for people my dad is number #1 but I still love him I'm not happy with him thinking that it's okay to let me down because he's done it before.

Maybe that's why I can't except that from my relationships, I hate being let down and I wouldn't say I'm looking for that perfect guy because nobody is perfect but I guess I just won't tolerate anyone to give me less than what I give them. I don't want to feel trapped like I do now and by trapped I mean not really being able to be a teen not exploring as much as I would like.

But I guess it comes with trust but I haven't gone back to the old me like last school year, that's something I just wanna keep in the back of my head. I don't wanna be remembered for the mistakes I made but how those mistakes made me better which is the person I am today.

I hope to see my future in a better light, my passion is to sing and act. I want to follow my dreams I feel like it can come true. I want to be able to tell people my story and i feel like I can help so many people and show them it's okay to keep fighting! There's always going to be someone in your life that will try to bring you down. Someone really inspired me to not be my own dream killer, by that meaning you allow yourself to believe or think that you can't follow your dream(s). But you can't do that it's only holding you back more just like those other dream killers. I am my own dream killer and along with some other people who are my dream killers.