Behind Closed Doors: The Candice Sanders Story, uncensored

Chapter#7: My very first heart break

Chapter #7: My very first heart break

It all started my first year in high school I just got out of this relationship with a guy that I felt wasn't really fully committed to me because his ex continued to pop up. It was June 7th of 2015 I met this guy and at first I didn't notice that he liked me but I was a freshmen and he was a junior, it was almost the end of the school year, I remember telling my best friend that I thought he was cute crazy thing is that I used to date his little brother in elementary school. I'm laughing just thinking about it but I remember I had recently added him on snap chat and I remember he sent me this video saying "hey don't tell anybody this but I think your cute" and when I watched it I was like "aww thank you," I thought it was the cutest thing ever. We began talking and we talked for a good 3 months and it's crazy but I fell hard for that boy, so hard that I was gonna give him my virginity but he knew I was waiting till marriage and he asked me if I was a virgin I told him yes and I asked if he was and he said no and I responded oh cool, and he said Is that a problem I told him that I was fine with it as long as me waiting till marriage wasn't a problem but he said he was cool with it. We went to the movies that was our only date, and last we normally went to the park and hanged out and believe me we had many opportunities to have sex because I always had the house to myself but we never did anything. And when I thought everything was good and he told me he loved me first but he just wasn't in love with me I thought wow. And I knew he was an upper class men and that he was older than me, I was 16 at the time and he was 17, than school started and we got into this big argument cause of something I posted on twitter he told me he didn't have a twitter but he always checking my Twitter funny, but anyway the next day school started and that same day he broke up with me he said "I don't feel the same about you anymore" and my heart just broke! I fell apart I lost myself, I started smoking weed and at the moment I wanted my birth mother not my aunt but my mother I wanted her to hug me and hold me and tell me it's okay even though I was hurting and it wasn't okay to me but just the fact she was there to comfort me. I began skipping school I lost my virginity to a boy I didn't even know his last name but I knew he liked me. But my friends and people I came in contact with told me get over it he doesn't want you, he's moved on. A week after we broke up he started dating this girl. And it broke my heart to see them together. I just wish I could've gotten the closer and told him how much he hurt me. But I was to scared. Now we no longer talk I mean I talked to him in the beginning of 2017 but now I don't talk to him, But I've forgiven him some what and it's hard but now it's hard for me to open up to another, it's hard for me to be open with the people I love. But one mans lost is another mans treasure! Always remember that!