Love hasn't been easy on me in my life. I've never received it from my own parents, living with my aunt getting that love never really existed in my life. But she may say other wise. I guess when you grow up without love from parents you go out in the real world and try to find it, but for me that wasn't the case. I've been in and out of relationships for a long time now and they've never really last that long. I've never been in a long term relationship. I sometimes wonder and I find myself questioning " What's wrong with me? What am I doing wrong?" But than I realized that there's nothing wrong with me, I've tried my best to work through all of my relationships.
But what really is love? I guess you can say I'm looking for someone to save me.. Save me from all the pain, heartache, stress and etc. But when is it my turn when can I finally say I'm happy? Growing up I thought to myself "you're no good for anyone." "who's gonna love someone who has a learning disability?" But than I realized these are all excuses.. I deserve happiness. I find it hard to let people in, because if I let them in any closer I'm afraid they'll leave. My ex told me to trust him and let my guard down, and I was dumb enough to listen. Why trust a man who can't even trust himself? I can't even count on my father half of the time because he's got so much going on, but putting in the effort wouldn't hurt. My dad said he wanted to teach me how to drive but doesn't look like that's happening anytime soon. With the new babies and everything he barely got time for me. I love my brothers and my dad but don't forget you have other kids. What is Love? Does it truly exist?
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Behind Closed Doors: The Candice Sanders Story, uncensored
RandomMy name is Candice and this is my story... In this you will read about things I went through and with God by my side I found a way to stay strong, and to have faith not only in myself but also in my God. Things you may read may be too much for you...
