Ross' POV
"Ow" I whimpered. "It's okay we're almost done" she soothed. My nurse was changing my bandage on my head. "There all done" she whispered. I sighed in relief as I leaned back onto the bed. "How you feeling?" She asked. "Relieved now that's over. That really hurt." I whimpered. "It's over for today now honey. Do you want anything?" She asked, rubbing my arm "can I have a cup of tea please?" I whispered. "Of course you can. I'll run and get you one." She smiled "thank you" she stood up and left the room. I leaned back as my phone buzzed. I reached for it 'mom'
"Hey baby dad is gonna come see you for an hour. That okay?"
I smiled 'yep'
My nurse walked back in and smiled. She was holding a tray with a cup of tea, a muffin and my meds. "Sorry to spoil your day sweetheart but time for the first dose of meds" she smiled. "You have my tea though so that's all that matters" I joked. She laughed as she placed the tray down. She handed me my tea and two pills. I sighed before taking them. I swallowed them before drinking more tea. "That's my boy" she smiled. I smiled up at her. "Is your mom coming today?" She asked. "No. She's busy or something" I frowned. "Dad is though" I smiled. "That's good" she smiled but it soon dropped. "You need to tell them" she told me "I know"
12:30pm
I was so tired. I cant go to sleep. Sometimes if I take a nap I'll wake up worse. The nurse walked in and frowned. "Ross. Hon you need to go to sleep." She sighed. "If I go to sleep I'll wake up feeling really bad" I told her. "Even so. You need to rest" "I will after the cast have gone" I assured. She smiled slightly"okay"
15 minutes later
The door opened and I looked up from my book and saw Laura, Raini and Calum. I smiled widely as they all ran over and hugged me. "Oh my god I've missed you so much!" Laura exclaimed. I smiled "I missed you all too!" I smiled as we all separated. "You look amazing" Calum smiled. My smile dropped for a second but I hid it with a small smile. "Thanks."
2 hours later
The cast and I had talked for hours but they had left. I missed the normality of talking to them. Talking about work, music, movies, what we've been up to. All sorts. I miss it. I hate having cancer for loads of reasons, but that's a big one. I'm not included in normality. After they left, I was on the verge of falling asleep. The door opened and the nurse walked in. "You okay?" She asked. "Tired" I mumbled. "You should sleep" she whispered, checking my vitals. "I know. Just don't want too" I sighed. "Why?" She asked. "I don't wanna die" I whimpered. She sighed "oh come here" she whispered, pulling my into her arms. "Let it out honey"
25 minutes
I finished sobbing and she rubbed my back. "Calm down" she whispered. "Th-Thank yo-u" I hiccuped. "It's alright honey. Just relax" she soothed. I closed my eyes "I've got you" she soothed. I got more tired as she continued to rub my back and she kissed my head. She lay me down and then I fell asleep.
4:30pm
I opened my eyes and pushed myself up. I looked around the room and saw it was empty. I closed my eyes again and sighed. I heard the door open "oh he's still asleep" I heard mom say. I stretched "he's waking up though" Rydel laughed. I opened my eyes and mom, Rydel and mamoo were there "hi" I smiled, stretching. "Hey honey. How you feeling?" Mom asked. "Tired" I whispered. "Oh baby. You don't look very well" Mamoo told me. "M'fine" I looked at mom "thought you weren't coming today?" I told her. "I was worried" she admitted. I nodded slightly as the nurse walked in "can I go on a walk?" I asked. "I don't know babe." She sighed. "Please. I'm getting cabin fever" I sighed. She laughed. "Okay. I'll get your wheelchair"
5 minutes later
The nurse got back and I lit up. Mom, mamoo and Rydel laughed as I slowly turned around so my legs were dangling off the bed. "Ready?" She asked. I nodded, reaching out my hands. Mom laughed as the nurse slowly pulled me onto my feet. I almost lost my balance but Rydel managed to help me walk to the chair. I sat down "I'll leave you too it"
Mom was pushing me around the hospital and mamoo and delly were following "can we go outside?" I asked. "Not today honey" mom told me. "Oh okay" I mumbled. "Actually" mom said as we walked into my nurse "hi Ross you alright?" She asked. "He's wondering if he can go outside" mom told her. "There is a garden on the roof. You can go up there" she told us. Mom smiled and nodded as we got into the elevator.
Mom pressed the button and we came out onto the roof. It was nice feeling the air on my face. Mom pushed my around. There was grass and flowers and plants. It was cold but it was nice. I shivered slightly "are you alright?" Rydel asked. I nodded, feeling the leaves. I feel like I haven't been out for ages. I never felt like this. "You look pale today" mamoo said. I nodded "always do" I whispered. I looked out at the city. I'm never gonna see that again. What? Ross stop. I stretched my arms and mom held my hand. I smiled up at her. She looks tired all the time now. She'll feel better soon. What? Why do I keep thinking this? "Mom" I said. "Yes baby" "I love you" she smiled. "I love you too my love" my eyes suddenly felt heavy and I fell unconscious
