"Just stop Kenny. Stop it. Let me go. Stop hurting me. Please....just let me go" I begged.
"I love you" He said. "I'm sorry"
"No kenny. you don't love me. You ripped my fucking stitches open that I just got, and you said I deserved what Spencer did to me, that what hurt most of all....do you even know how much I've been struggling with all this AND dealing with the fact that I don't have parents anymore? Do you even know how much pain i've been in? I'm SUFFERING kenny. I tried SO hard not to fight with you today just so you wouldn't hit me" I said. I cried a little loudly and got out of his grip and hugged my knee's to my chest and burried my head into my knees and just cried. I was crying rather loudly so I knew kenny could hear it. He came up behind me and put his arms around me and put one of his legs on the right side of me and the other on the left. He held me tight but gentle to where it didn't hurt. He kissed my neck. He took one of his arms and rubbed up and down my chest and legs since I had my knees to my chest. It hurt like fuck to bend my knee cuz my stitches were ripped open but it took away from the pain in my heart.
"I love you Nicole" Kenny said and kissed my head.
"I love you too, but you keep hurting me Kenny, I can't take this shit no more" I said through my tears. He rubbed up and down my chest again and put his head on top of mine.
"I'm sorry Nicole. I'm so so sorry" He said. I wasn't ready to forgive him yet so I just kept crying.
"I can't do it anymore!" I cried. Yes, I'm having an emotional breakdown. I just can't do it anymore.
"I love you, I love you, I love you" He repeated and kept kissing my cheeck.
I took my knee's away from my chest and layed my legs out. I turned to my side and layed my head on kenny's chest and cried. He layed back onto the grass taking me down with him. He grabbed my hand and interwined our fingers with one hand and rubbed up and down my back with the other. I got his shirt soaked with my tears but he didn't seem to mind at all.
"Do you forgive me?" He asked.
"I don't know Kenny, we'll see. You have to prove to me that you've changed and that you love me" I said.
"I love you" He said
"I love you too" I said.
"Come on babe. Lets go home" He said.
"I can't walk right now babe" I said.
"I'll carry you" He said. He picked me up carefully and I wrapped my legs around his waist and my arms around his neck. He looked into my eyes.
"I love you baby" He said again.
We kissed on the lips slowly and passionetly. I missed his kisses that I hadn't felt in 2 days. I layed my head on his chest. He put one of his hands under my legs to hold me up and one on my back. We walked home and he carried me upstairs to my room. he layed me on my bed and layed next to me and put the covers over us. he wrapped on of his arms around my waist and pulled me closer. He kissed my forehead. We just layed there for a while and I fell asleep. I was exhuasted and my eyes were red and puffy from all the crying. I really don't know if I'm going to forgive Kenny or not. He crossed the line this time, but he's so sweet when he's not hitting me....it makes me wonder....is he bi-polar or something?
