It's been two months since I broke up with Kenny. He comes over to see the babies a lot, but I try to avoid him when he's over. I've been living with Casey, and we've gotten a lot closer. I still miss being with Kenny and everything, but I'm a mom now and I have to make the best decisions for me and my kids. Spencer, Sherry, and my brother come over to see the babies too. Today's friday and I'm taking the kids over to Kenny's house so they can spend the weekend with him. It kills me everytime I see his face. I'm fifteen now and I have my permit to drive, but since the cops are retarded I drive by myself all the time.
I sighed as I walked to my closet. I pulled out my short black shorts and a blue tank top. I quickly threw them on and started doing my hair and makeup. I left my hair its natural shape, which is curly, and put on some pink lipgloss and mascara. Casey's downstairs giving the babies bottles while I got dressed, shes been such a big help, shes almost like another mom to them. I took a big tote bag out and packed it with the babies clothes, then packed it with the formula for their milk. I zipped up the bag and walked downstairs. Casey looked up at me and smiled.
"Hey" I said. She stood up.
"Hey you look pretty" She complimented. I smiled.
"Thanks. I guess I better take them to Kenny's house" I stated. She nodded.
"Just stay strong Nicole, I know its hard for you when you see him. If your really that miserable without him, then maybe you should take him back and give him another chance" She suggested. I really have been missing him, every time he comes over I cry. He tries to get back together but I say no. I really do wan't to be his girlfriend again. I just shrugged.
"I don't know maybe" I said. She just nodded and helped me take the babies out to the car. After we got all of the stuff in the car she hugged me.
"I'll see you later. Tell me how it goes, alright?" She asked. I nodded and got into the car and began driving to Kenny's house.
Tears instantly welled up in my eyes as I pulled up at his house. I sighed and got out of the car. I picked up the boys (Kenny Jr. and Dylan) and bought them up to the porch. I left them there and then went back to my car and got the girls. I walked up to his house and hesitated before ringing the doorbell. After a minute of standing there he answered the door.
"Hey" He said and took Casey and Elizabeth out of my arms.
"Hi" I answered. I followed him in the house and set Sherry down on the couch next to Casey and Elizabeth. A tears slipped my eye but I quickly wiped it away. He watched as I went outside and got Kenny and Dylan. I set them down on the couch too. I didn't make eye contact with him as I went outside and got the bag with there clothes and formula. I walked back in the house to see him cradling Elizabeth in his arms. I smiled. He's a really good Dad.
I set the bag down on the floor and kissed all of my babies on the foreheads goodbye.
"Alright well I guess I'll come back on Monday to pick them up" I said as I looked back up at Kenny.
"Okay" He answered. I nodded and walked out.
I got to my car and put my head on the top of it and started crying hysterically.
I miss him so much. I miss feeling his strong arms wrapped around me, I miss being snuggled up to his chest at night, I miss waking up in bed and being wrapped in his arms, I miss the way after we'd get into a stupid fight how he'd apoligize and would wrap his arms around me and wouldn't let me go when I tried to get out of his grip, I miss the feeling of his warm, soft, sweet lips on mine.
I was there leaning on my car and crying for 15 minutes looking like an idiot until I heard the front door open and shut. I didn't even look back to see who it was, I didn't care at the moment. All of a sudden I felt arms wrap around my stomach gently. The warm, strong arms that I'd been missing for two months. I felt them pull me up from the car and stand me up straight. He rubbed up and down my stomach and chest gently. He started leaving a trail of warm kisses from my neck up to my cheek.
