I woke up the next morning in Kenny's arms again. I missed this so much. I smiled and snuggled closer to him. I was so happy I had my old boyfriend back, but, will this last? Or will he go back to his old ways? I starred at him until I saw his eyes open up slowly, I quickly laid my head back down and closed my eyes. I heard him chuckle.
"I saw that" He whispered in my ear. I giggled. I opened my eyes and looked up at him.. He pecked me on my lips softly. Then he started rubbing my back and I flinched. It hurt from all the cuts I had on it from the glass bottles. He frowned and rubbed it more gently.
"I'm so sorry babe, you know I love you, right?" He said. I wanted to say yeah but I couldn't, cuz I don't know that. Cuz I mean, if you love somebody, why would you abuse them? Tears brimmed my eyes.
"I...I don't know anymore. For the past seven months alls you've done is abuse me and tell me you hate me" I said quietly trying to hold back the tears. A few slid down my face but he wiped them away. He sat up taking me with him. He held me in his arms and kissed the top of my head. I looked down at my beaten and bruised body which made me feel even worse. I started sobbing uncontrollably.
"Shh, shh, it's okay baby. I'm not going to hurt you anymore. I promise you" He whispered as he rocked me back and forth. I cried into his chest. I honestly didn't know what to believe. I mean come on, I'm sixteen years old and this guys abused me since I was eleven, what am I supposed to think?
"You don't understand how much pain you've put me through" I said through tears. He hugged me tighter. He layed back down on the bed taking me down with him gently. I laid my one hand on his chest and just cried into his chest. He didn't seem to care that I was getting his bare chest soaked with my tears, instead of hitting me for once and yelling at me to stop crying, he comforted me for the first time in a long time. He grabbed all of my hair gently, trying not to hurt me, and put it on one side. He kept kissing my head as he rubbed my back soothingly. May'be he has changed, may'be he will go back to the loving boyfriend he once was and stop hurting me. I know most of you are probably like 'shes such a dumbass for staying with him this long', but the fact is, I love him and I do have 5 babies with him, and I don't want any other guy. Even if I did start going out with some other guy, I'm always gonna have this special connection with him because we have kids together so it's not like he'd be out of my life for good.
"I'm so sorry baby. I love you so much. Please give me another chance. Give me another chance to prove to you that I love you and that I've changed" He whispered. I looked up at him.
"Promise you'll be a better father to the kids?" I asked. He pecked me on the lips and stroked my hair.
"I promise" He whispered. I put my head back down again and cried into his shirt some more. Thats when I heard my phone go off. I picked it up and looked at it. It was a text from...my brother? He hasn't talked to me in six months.
Dylan: Umm, hey. Look I'm sorry I haven't talked to you in the past six months. And I'm sorry I abandoned you in the time you needed me the most. I just couldn't stand the fact that Kenny was abusing you every single day and not doing another to even try to make it better and you just stayed with him. You have to remember NIcole, you're my baby sister and I hate seeing you get hurt by a guy, you deserve better then that. I guess the truth is, I didn't wan't the same thing happening to you that happened to mom with my dad. But always remember, I'm always here for you.
I smiled when I read that. He still cares about me. I texted him back.
Me: It's okay Dylan. I know you were just looking out for me. But the fact is, I love Kenny, and I have five kids with him, its not that easy just to leave him. It hurt me when you walked out that day and never talked to me after that, but what hurt the most is you never came back and saw you neice's or nephew's, you are their uncle.
I hit send and layed my phone on the bed.
"Is everything okay babe?" Kenny asked. I nodded and laid back on him. I snuggled into his chest. He smiled down at me and wrapped his arms back around me. He kissed the top of my head. I missed this.
"Baby, I love you" He said. I smiled. I missed hearing this.
"I love you too"
