Mate?

Chapter 15: Why Me?

Rafael's POV

Okay so it has been almost a week since my party and ever since then, my female 'mate' has been trying to get me to mate with her but it's not her I want.

I want my beautiful green eyed mate, with the amazing husky voice.

He was just so beautiful. I can't stop thinking about him. Every time I try to talk to Adam he just runs away and it hurts, because he can't trust me and won't go near me. He scared of me. And it's all my fucking "friends" fault. Well I mean, it's also kinda mine but, still.

I haven't talked, or been very social,  much since the party. I just go and lock myself up in my room and think about Adam.

He doesn't want me. But I want him, I want him so much it hurts. I just want to hold him and protect him, make sure no one touches him. I honestly don't even care what people think about me being gay. I just feel like I'm already in love with him.

Which makes me so mad. Why does he have this affect on me? Why does he make me feel weak? Why can't he want me the way I want him?

All these questions storm through my mind every day. I can't even sleep well anymore, and I think you can tell but I don't care because without Adam, I might as well be dead.

I groaned and paced around my room. All this stress is crushing down on my chest, just adding to my already-there frustration.

I stop pacing for a moment and look out the window. I run a heavy ha d through my hair and turn around and walk my room.

I run down the stairs and pass several pack members that were roaming around the pack house. I slow down and pass through them swiftly. Then open the back door and run out.

I shift into my wolf in mid run. I let him take over and quickly become submissive. I close my eyes and welcome the feeling of my wolf running and taking power.

Gives me a moment to think.

Before sooner than I realize,  my wolf slows down to a halt. I look around and gasp at the place he brought me.

It's gorgeous, isn't it? He said wagging his tail.

That it is. I reply and then take over, my wolf becoming submissive once again.

I walk around the small place in the woods and laying down on a small patch of young grass. It was a couple of shades lighter than Adam's eyes.

I whimper softly, and lay my head on my front paws.

Adam's POV (shock)

All I could think was why me?

Why did I have to have the amazing, hot, sexy third in command. He, ugh, he makes me feel things. He brings my wolf back out and I don't want that.

You see I'm not a full werewolf I'm a turned.

Meaning, I'm an omega, which describes why I'm so weak and pathetic. I knew I shouldn't have gone to that party but my friend really wanted to go.

She kept insisting I go. She can be so persuasive, but you gotta love Lydia. Yeah her best girl friend is Rachel. A.K.A. my 'mates' sister. Adding more chaos to this whole situation.

But Lydia really is the best. She just kinda parties to much. Even if she's an omega like me, she doesn't care.

Or she does, but never shows it. She's just so charismatic and has a beautiful personality. But all I can think of is him.

Why did I have to get him? Why couldn't I have stayed alone forever? Why couldn't I have been a normal turned and not get a mate? Why do I have to be gay? Why couldn't he just stay away from me?

I mean I know he's trying really hard, but can't he understand that I don't want him? That all he'll do is break my heart? Or that he'll just laugh and say I'm just a joke and go back to his sluts. I can't think straight.

He's all I keep thinking about.

I sighed and ran my hair through my curly mop of hairs.

Yeah their curly hair but I normally just gel them up so they won't look like a mop. I'm so stressd I can't even concentrate on my work and that's a shocker. Normally I can take my mind off things by doing work but no. Rafael just has to barge into my brain and take over.

Not that I mind..... Wait what? I mean I do mind. A lot.

I just can't take it anymore. I have to do something. He is messing with my mind and it's getting irritating. I just want him to want me, like I want him. If that even makes sense.

But I know he only wants to see me get hurt, and then laugh at me with all the other jerks. I mean why would he just change?

I mean sure he wasn't the meanest one but he also didn't do anything when they would pick on me or beat me up.

So I just Can't. Trust. Him.

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Sorry for the shortness and yeah it was a small filler, but hope you liked it