Who Should I Choose?

I Dont Want This

Blake

I texted Aliyah yesterday because i really wanted to talk to her.

It was a personal matter and i know that we haven't been getting alone lately but we are still friends in a way, right?

And she was a good friend of mine.

Its just that when i found out that he was my father i was relieved because at least i have a Dad.

The reason i have been acting out is simple. I'm scared.

You all know by now that i am not the type of guy to like girls in a romantic way, or like guys in a friendly way.

I just don't know how to react on my feelings.

I'm not even sure if I'm really gay or because i have had my heart broken multiple of times by girls.

And a couple weeks from now Dad will be having a get together and I mean for his birthday and I have to bring a date.

I have been in the closet for almost my entire life and that is exactly the place i want to remain. But when Kayne bursted out my secret i just couldn't take it.

I have just been a really quiet ever since.

And then my Dad added to it.

Saying he wants to meet the girl of my dreams

No doubt he doesn't know

The only persons who know about it are my friends and Kayne was responsible for that.

I was now at Aliyah's front door because i came by yesterday but i guess i had texting her too late yesterday so she already went to the party.

She also didn't reply to me.

No doubt she doesn't want to talk to me.

"Hey". I greeted her.

She stop there looking at me quit annoy by my presence but how can i blame her

I have been acting out lately.

"Look i can explain, would you please let me in, because i really want to talk to you about something personal, please". I pleaded and she stepped from the door way and I walk in.

I sat on the couch in the living room and she sat opposite of me.

"So what do you want, Blake?". She asked not so politely.

"I have something i need to tell you". And as i said that sentences i spilled everything out.

And I mean everything.

I tell her about my Dad, me been gay, me wanting a date, me not know in what i really want etc etc.........

She listened keenly and I appreciate it.

She told me that i need to tell my Dad, but then she says that it would ruin me so she will help me to find someone and then she started smiling.

After that we pretty much just talk about my Dad and catch up on the things we missed out on.

I think it wasn't really a bad idea for us to be related because Aliyah and I are really good friends.

I left when i saw Carly and Shawn walk down the stairs looking like homeless persons.

So i left Aliyah all to it. And of course when i did she told me what i friend i was. I was quit delighted to here this but i know she was only being sarcastic.

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Monday

Sorry guys i skipped the after part meaning in the evening but i just wanted to add a Ryder chapter. So this is Monday,so don't get confused.