I still remember how it all felt before.
Not as it is all better now.
Im still waiting for the big way, the big shake to show up. But the awakening has been done, and I'm confused.
Blinded by the light, i've been sleeping for too long. Time was fast but endless, i can barely remember that one year.
I was sorrounded by people i didn't like and they surely weren't having any kind of influence on me.
But with nothing to do, nobody to talk to, some ideas that could bring me out of the unconsciousness i was living in, i got completely faded, blurry and gone. I followed everyone with no personality, thoughts, hobbies or wishes. I wasn't realizing that i wanted to find myself and be noticed. Be real. And the thing that makes me angry is that i realize it now, now i know. And i was so dumb and empty that i cant even believe it.
Everything seemed pointless and useless. No purpose and no future. I see it. I feel it. I'm not done
But god im so confused.
Maybe sleep will be back again and maybe i'll take it deep inside.
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Randomi cant remember what i was talking about. maybe you maybe me maybe us. they just keep popping up, in the most inappropriate moments. i hate them so much i wish i could just extirpate them from my mind like you do with dead flowers. my memories are...
