One // Leigh-Anne Pinnock

Chapter Fifteen

Leigh's began eyes fluttering open. She felt something cold on her forehead. She squinted and saw Jesy staring down at her.

"Guys I think she's waking up." Jesy called. Everyone ran into lounge. They sat around the room. A few sat on the floor. They avoided the couch where she lay because they didn't want her to feel claustraphobic.

Leigh groaned. Even though Jesy didn't shout, the sound made her head pound. Jesy helped her sit up then gave her a glass of water to drink. She sipped it then gave it back. She put her head in her hands feeling a little dizzy.

"How are you feeling?" Jesy asked.

"I'll be fine. What happened?"

"You passed out. We heard something crash and your head was on the counter but you were hardly breathing. We were too far from a hospital so we called a doctor who's also an OB/GYN. She had one of the portable ultrasound machines and said the baby's fine that you just need to rest."

"Will I be able to do the show tomorrow night?"

Jesy looked at the girls and exchanged glances. Jade spoke up.

"She said it's best you sit at least two shows out."

Leigh sighed amd ran her hands through her hair. She felt even guiltier than before. The air began getting thicker and thicker. She couldn't breathe. She began hyperventilating.

"Leigh! Take some deep breaths for me." Jesy said calmly but firmly. She knelt down in front of her, almost eye level.

She felt eyes piercing her skin. She glanced up and saw that all eyes were on her.

"M-make them g-go." She stuttered softly.

"Can you give us a minute." Jesy asked not taking her eyes off the shaking girl.

Everyone got up and left the room.

"Leigh look at me." Jesy said. Leigh's dull eyes looked into Jesy's hazel orbs.

"You're having a panic attack and you need to calm down. We're going to take some deep breaths. Just do what I do okay. Seems easy enough right." She said softly. Leigh nodded.

Jesy inhaled deeply and held her breaths for 5 seconds then released. Leigh mimicked her. They repeated it twice more.

"Better?" She asked sitting next to her.

"A little." She leaned into Jesy's side looking for comfort. Jesy embraced her and gently rubbed her arms up and down.

"I want to go home. Me coming on this tour was a bad idea. Talk to Sam and let me go home." Tears were welling in her eyes.

"We'll talk about it later okay. You had a rough morning and right now you need to sleep. When you're well rested and can think straight we'll discuss it okay?" She nodded.

"Carry me." She whined like a child.

"Claud." Jesy called.

"Yeah?"

"Carry her to her bunk please."

Claud gently picked her up bridal style and carried her to her bunk. She fell asleep, nuzzled in his chest, before they got to the bunk.
He placed her gently on the bed and quietly left the room.

...

"Can I talk to you guys please?" Jesy asked interupting Jade and Perrie's conversation.

"What's up?"

"She wants to go home. She needs to go home." Jade looked at Perrie and Perrie looked away.

"Guys her being here is affecting her mentally. You can see it in her eyes! She feels guilty about being here. She thinks we're gonna resent her because we can't do a full on show."