Falling for You (BTS Jimin Fanfiction)

Part 16

Hyun-Ae's POV:

I can't think straight as I make my way back to my car, trying my best not to stumble.

Oh.

My. 

Gosh.

Did that really just happen?

I'm sure I just imagined it, but why else would my heart be pounding like this? Who else could make my stomach flutter the way it is right now? 

Park Jimin kissed me.

He KISSED ME... I mean, just a light one on the top of my head, but still. 

I don't know what I'm feeling. I don't know how I'm supposed to feel about what I'm feeling. Shock for sure. I never expected that to happen. Happiness? That's not quite the word. Giddiness? It's not just pure elation though... regardless, it's not every day that a girl gets a kiss from her bias in her favorite boy-band- even though my feelings towards them were always limited since I had a boyfriend-

Oh my gosh. KYUNG-SHIN. 

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?

Suddenly I want to cry. Poor Kyung-Shin. My goodness, if only he knew how terribly I've treated him, how awful and treacherous my heart has been lately. What does this say about me as a person? What does this say about our relationship?

I spend the rest of the drive home trying to sort out my conflicted feelings. Was I wrong to just leave like that and make things awkward between myself and Jimin? Should I have stayed? But I didn't trust my judgement in that moment. Goodness knows what stupid thing I might have done. And... even though he kissed me, the more I replay it in my mind, the more it seemed like a friendly, thankful gesture for looking out for him. Yoongi-oppa always told me that out of all the members, the most affectionate was probably Jimin... so it might not have meant anything. He might care for me a little, but I don't know if his heart is racing like mine is. Or if his stomach is fluttering with butterflies from that small moment. 

I don't know. And I don't think it is. I don't think he feels that way. 

I shouldn't either. 

So why can't I stop myself? Should I break up with Kyung-Shin, my boyfriend of over two years, my best friend even longer? No. This is stupid. I've known Kyung-Shin since forever, and in all of this confusion in my warring heart, I know without a doubt that I do love him. But why is this still so complicated?

Because the more that I think about it, the more that I realize that I think about Jimin more than I do my Kyung-Shin...oh my gosh. I really can't deny it to myself anymore, can I?

Damn you, Park Jimin, with your perfectly chiseled body, silky hair, angelic voice, breathtaking eyes, and adorable charms.

...

I think I'm falling for him.