Young and Emo? | Ryan Ross x Reader

Panic! Attack

Trigger warning:mentions of rape and abuse, don't read if easily triggered.

Dream-

I heard the rattling of chains as I tried my hardest to break free from my restraints, A thin sheet of sweat blanketing my forehead. I heard the large metal door open and slam closed, I closed m eyes tightly, wishing I could just be gone. Unfortunately, that trick didn't work as a felt a tug on my hair, causing me to quickly stand up. The hand gripping my hair turned me, making me face my attacker. I stared into his dark brown, almost black eyes, fear welling up inside of me, anxiety lump forming in my throat, heart beat speeding, I was terrified. I shook my head vigorously.

"No! Please! Nooooooo! Haven't you taken enough from me?"

He covered my mouth with his hand, silencing my screams for help. He slammed me down on the bed in the room, him towering above me, an evil smirk plastered on his face.

End Of Dream~

I awoke, my pillow damp with sweat. My breath going at a fast pace, I held my hand to my heart. Not him, Not again. I felt hot, heavy tears stream down my face. I whimpered softly as I let fear and anxiety consume my being. My legs trembling, I attempted to stand, immediately falling to the floor and sobbing heavily into my hands. I wiped my eye with my sweater paw. Everything was lost, He took everything from me, Everything. I felt like I couldn't breathe, I was having a panic attack. I wanted to drive away, to be gone. Yoshima made her way toward me, licking my face when she arrived. I wrapped my arms around her and cried.

After I had finished crying, I got up, immediately heading to the kitchen. My face felt tight from the tears. I gulped a cup of water, reliving my dry throat. I panted, my thoughts scrambling inside of my head. I collapsed onto the couch, despite the commotion going on in my head, I fell asleep, I was exhausted from crying and having a panic attack.

I awoke eventually, despite my desire to never. A yawn escaped my lips as I sat up, just as I did, I heard my stomach rumble as if it was a hungry monster awaiting its prey. I threw my legs over the edge of the sofa, eventually allowing my whole body to lift itself off of the soft surface. I made my way to the kitchen, petting Yoshima on the way. I decided to make myself some scrambled eggs. I had the day off today, no practice. The next practice that I had was singing practice, meaning I'd be alone with the boys to practice. As I was pouring orange juice to go along with my eggs, I heard my phone ding. I prayed that it wasn't him. I looked to my phone to see an unknown number, the message read:

'Hey girl, it's Sarah, I hope your first singing practice goes well tomorrow 💞!'

I sighed contently, how'd she even get my number?

Me: How'd you get my number???

Sarah: Ryan gave Brendon and Brendon gave me. Btw you and Ryan should just fuck already.

Me: Fuck you, and I could say the same thing about you and Brendon.

Sarah: Love you too! <3

I sighed, putting down my phone, that girl is crazy. I finished eating my breakfast and decided to go to the park, it was a nice day and I was bored. I, of course, took Yoshima with me. I was walking through the park with my canine buddy beside me, when I saw something horrifying, him. Every single negative emotion bubbled inside me, forming a deadly mixture. Tears forming in the corners of my eyes, whole body shaking, I passed out.