Young and Emo? | Ryan Ross x Reader

Can I Trust You?

Ryan eats insanely fast, we ate in the parking lot, I was on like my second chicken nugget when he was done with his Big Mac. I was shocked, but continued eating as he drove out of the McDonalds. He promised me Wendy's, but McDonalds was right by the hospital and I was extremely hungry. We were going to his house first to pick up Yoshima. My eyes felt heavy as we drove to the place in which Ryan called home.

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I was awoken by someone shaking me and whispering 'We're here' softly, I let my eyes flutter open, I was in Ryan's car. I remembered what exactly was going on, I was here to pick up Yoshima. I yawned, pulling on the handle to open the car door. Ryro did the same. Once I got out of the car I stretched. Ryan walked to the door and pulled his keys out from his left back pocket. He unlocked the door and slightly pushed it open, waiting for me to join him. I trotted up, he pushed the door open and gestured for me to go inside.

"Thank you, sir." He hummed in response. I looked around, his house was cozy and humble, but it was fancy as well. He told me that he would go get Yoshima and that I could wait here. I walked around slightly, careful to not mess up anything. I saw a photo on the floor, I picked it up, it was torn, and the missing piece lay on the floor, I picked up that as well. It was a picture of what seemed to be Ryan's family, his dad was the one ripped out of the picture. Why would Ryan rip the picture? I held the pictures still, contemplating. Suddenly I heard footsteps, I was tempted to hide the picture and pretend like I never saw it in the first place, but I decided against that, I needed answers. I looked up from the floor, there stood Ryan with Yoshima in his arms. When he saw what I had in my fragile hands his expression turned from still to shocked and sad....?

"I thought I threw that away." He mumbled under his breath, but I heard.

"Why'd you tear out your dad?"

"Can I trust you?" I didn't have to hesitate to answer.

"Yes! Of course." He smiled weakly, his head buried in his hands.

"Well, my dad growing up was an alcoholic, he started drinking after my mom died. My mom passed away when I was 13, she was diagnosed with lung cancer, but by the time they found it, it was too late. My mom was the only one who could control him, even without the alcohol he was angry all of the time. After her death, he had found a way to numb the pain I guess. Everyday I would come home from school, all to be screamed at by a vodka-smelling man. Eventually it escalated, he started abusing me, I've always been a skinny, kind of quiet person, so I never found the courage to fight back. He would remind me of all the things that I did wrong, but the thing that hurt the most was the fact that he was able to do that. He was able to hit his son for no reason, he was able to bring his son down for no reason, he was able to do all of these things to me even though I am his own son. The only thing that kept me going was music, writing it, playing it, it all meant so much to me. It still does. I haven't had contact with my dad since I was 17. I don't know where he is, hell, I don't know who he is." Tears spilled uncontrollably from my eyes, despite it not happening to me, it still hurt, I'm really close to Ryan even if we've only known each other for a few days. He looked up

"Why are you crying?"

"I'm so sorry!" I hugged him tight, he buried his head in the crook of my neck. He eventually wrapped his arms around me, returning the hug.

"Can I stay here for tonight?" I whispered in his ear. I didn't want him to be alone, maybe I should rid the house of razor blades while I'm here. Just in case. He nodded. I pulled my face away, not separating our bodies. I looked into his honey colored eyes as he gazed into my (E/C) orbs. He started leaning in, as did I....

A/N: I now name myself queen of cliff hangers! Thank you to everyone who wished for me to get better on the last chapter! It means a lot! Btw my dms are always open, so slide into them anytime, but just as Frens Lmao. Sorry this chapter is kinda short, but it's important to the story. Bye!