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Sorry for not posting in 8 years :')

I really like dried fruit

Anyways my mom still hasn't called the therapist people (to help assign me to a therapist) and Ive been begging her and I'm just done with it so I was like "mom pls call the therapist people t o d a y"

And she was like "ok"

And I was like "bc I really want to go to therapy"

And she was like "r u ok?????"

And I'm like "ya but Ive just been asking you for like 7 years to go to therapy"

But basically it's annoying bc like????? If Ive asked for a therapist every day since like January I'm probably not ok?????? Like all my moms kids went to therapy and she actually encouraged it and now she won't let me go??????????????????????? Like I just wanna talk to someone irl about my problems and it's super frustrating

My anxiety is getting worse and so is my mental health all together and most of the time I just want to die tbh. (Im not actually going to kill myself bc anxiety wouldn't let me so that's a + of having anxiety and depression) I'm just so ready to see a therapist because Ive had all these things bottled up inside me and I just want to get it off my shoulders. My mind has been basically empty these past few weeks. Ive had no extremely strong emotions at all. My mom also refuses to put me on meds because they made my brother gain and loose weight super fast and it also made him have suicidal thoughts but like???? Me and my brother are different people

Ok ok sorry for ranting I'm done