No Heroes Allowed (student/teacher)

Chapter 10 - Wish You Were Here

A week passed since the first date. Nothing’s happened since then. No more dates and no more sleeping over. It made me sad every night that he wasn’t right next to me but I had to get used to it. Because after this case, will I ever see him again? Will I ever talk to him? Were we that serious?

I was getting to close too fast. He made my heart skip a beat when I saw him. When he taught, I couldn’t keep my eyes off his lips. Was that wrong of me? I couldn’t get him out of my head. He made me angry and he didn’t even know it. Whenever he would talk to a fellow teacher, a lady teacher, it would make my blood boil. To see the women flirt with him and I couldn’t do anything about it. Why did I feel jealousy when he wasn’t even mine?

It wasn’t helping the case any. We had no leads and no new evidence. No more calls came in or threats received. Lewis was getting irritated and Mark and I were getting anxious for something new. We still couldn’t work on any cases on the side. It was still our number one priority and all we could do is sit around the office. Every other agent made us look bad. They were all doing something.

I sat outside on the drive and watched the sun set. It was Friday night and every high school student was going to the opening football game. Not me. I detested football. Zack went there to support the team and work the gates. Mark was on a date with a blonde and I was stuck alone. Alone. I didn’t even have Max.

I drew my legs up and rested my arms on my knees. I really needed friends. Carly was with her parents and agents at the game. Why can’t I be liked? What was wrong with me? I know Zack liked me, but why not anyone else? Why couldn’t I make friends? They didn’t have to be my age, just people to hang out with. I always knew high school was odd.

My phone by my side lit up, telling me I was receiving a call. I answered without looking at the caller ID, it was probably Mark anyway. “Hello?”

“Hey!”

“Zack, what are you doing calling me? Don’t you have a gate to manage?”

“Someone took over for me. You should come. I know we couldn’t be together but at least I could see your face.”

I sighed. I really didn’t feel like it. I just wanted to crawl in bed and sleep for hours. “I can’t. I’m busy.” I hated to lie to him. He did nothing wrong, I was just in one of those ‘hate everyone and everything’ moods.

“Are you sure?”

I nodded and stopped once I remembered he couldn’t see me. “Yeah Zack, I’m sure.”

“Okay…”

I tried to sound happy. “Just go have fun! Go team!” He laughed, bid his adieus and hung up. I laid my head on my arms and breathed in and out. I texted Mark and told him try not to need me tonight. He didn’t reply, too busy with his date but he would get the message soon. I walked inside after one long last look at the sky. I walked up the steps and opened the door and turned the porch light on.

Under the covers, I curled up tight. Nothing felt right. Zack wasn’t here, Mark’s with another girl and I was lonely. I really needed a pet. One I could curl up with and tell all my troubles to without being judged. Why did I feel like crying? Was I really that lonely? I haven’t cried since my parent’s death. Why, all of the sudden were the waterworks coming?

A single tear escaped my eyes and rolled onto the pillow. I squeezed my eyes shut and forced myself to go to sleep. Why though? It’s not like I had anything planned for tomorrow. Zack and Mark would be in teachers meetings. I could call Carly…

A loud banging woke me up. I looked at the alarm clock and cursed. It was nearly midnight, who would be knocking? I grabbed my gun from under my pillow and slipped it into the back of my pants. I turned on the hall light and walked downstairs. Sometime, during the night, the porch light went out. I frowned. It usually stayed on…